My last one

 I need to send one big apologise to a person that means so much to me and seen to be getting hurt and which I'm sorry for, they know who they are so I don't need to say their name. This is the very last entry  on here, it will stay open until I work out how to save stuff of it.

Have a lot

I have a lot to say but not here. So I will say nothing and just keep it to me. It a lot safer if i do and no-one ever gets hurt, if i say nothing.

gone

One week over and now we go into week two, when will I get what I need and when will people say hey Deb help me doing all this. Or just a thank you would be just as nice but nope. Well that's it just don't have much faith and I don't have much to say to anyone anymore.
Cheers Deb

Today

Today I went to a funeral of a old school mates dad, it was beautiful and very sad. They had photos of him when we were hanging around together in primary school and then in later life which I wasn't a part of. The last lot of the photos were of him in hospital with his family. Marian was a trooper and Lesley was bit upset more than me. We both were talking after about our own families and we both feel the lost of our parents. Her mum funeral was there and it was a year ago, if only we meet up 6 months early i would have been at her mums funeral. I always remember her mum and dad they were so sweet and funny for poms.  We end up at the pub for a wake, is which he wanted, he was a funny man and on the the card they give you it had on  the front, Remember me with smiles, not tears. I did like that and it made me smile. When Lesley and I was talking I said at mine, I want Scotch and brandy and whiskey none of this coffee and biscuits stuff. Is really what Marian wanted she want champagne but the step mum said no. It was good to catch up these two, even it wasn't great way to see each other. So we all said we must go out again to ark or somewhere else and have a few drink. This time Marian said I'm not dancing like I did that nite because I couldn't walk for a week, she had to see her doc. well that's it for now, wow I got 1 hour tomorrow whooo is all I can say.

Cheers Deb