Today,

A mate of my rang me about going to the psychic fair today, she won tickets and $100 so we could go and have some fun. So we got there early and just look around and look around, i mean we went up and down the rows. We wanted to see who made us feel like we could have a reading with. i spoke to this lady and said I would like a reading but she was working for someone else. I told her well I want you to read to me but she couldn't so she gave me her card so I can contact her later, which I will. So I went with another one, that tape the reading which is good. So now it wait and see if some of it comes right. Some of it was about my best friend and I, and someone we both know. My nanna came in and spoke to me. She was right on some of it and she wouldn't had know it. My dad came in and slap my hand, then he left and let my nanna speak, thats my dad. She said I need to keep doing my own reading but just not to read them but use my feeling, they said i had a gift. I'm not giving to much away because I would like to see if some will come true first.

Cheers Deb

school at camp

What a very quiet week, the 5/6/7 are at camp and it so quiet and of course no one is out of line. My best friend is on camp and it been very lonely week, can't wait until she comes back tomorrow. I would love to have gone but I wasn't allow to, because of the student I support. It been fantastic with them not. Last week of uni and really can't wait, well I have one more assignment to do and its not a easy one either. At least I have one more week to do it.
Cheers for now Deb

uni and men

Yes uni nearly finished for another sem, doing my last two assignment, which are due in two weeks. My last two assignment I pass one but the other said TP what ever that is I'm just waiting to find out. I'm just so tied at the moment it really hard to deal everything. i really looking forward to the break. It not helping me at work and a home... My youngest daughter is getting tease at school by some boys, they are saying she ugly and fat and other comments. She is a beautiful girl and not over weight. I'm glad her best friend spoke to her mum and she spoke to me, because I really didn't know and now I'm glad I do. Boys can be so cruel and that not boys her age and can be all ages, they don't get any better.... Just ask my number 2 daughter she would agree with, because of what her ex did to her and look at my own life. Are my girls seeing my life and think this what it should be, god I hope not. i always blame myself things like this happen to my girls, because they don't see anything different. I married a wonderful man, but then things did change. Not for years then I had babies and stay at home with them and he went out. Then things got worst when work at this place and then things did change even more, then we split up and got back together but nothing change. then he meet two people and then we lost all the love all together. He did all say he loved me when he was drunk but after he meet someone that stop. So what do you expect that my kids see this that they are not going to have very good relationship with men, so i blame myself for this......

Cheers Deb

Happy Mothers

My dad and My nanna

Today is mothers day, well everywhere it is, but here. That's ok I'm use to it, my family not in to mothers day. When i was growing up it was so important to cherish my mum and my nanna on this day. We always went out for lunch so my mum didn't have to do anything, my dad made sure mums day, was mums day. When us girls were older we always made sure mum was spoiled on this day. So this morning I was up and no breakfast in bed, I got happy mothers day from Jake in Jake way of talking and then Stacey said Happy's mother days, Lisa said I'm need to eat take me to kfc and Jess rang to wish me happy mother day before she went to work but then i find out she is going out to dinner with her boyfriend family that really hurts me more. Well there you go mother days.... So this afternoon i went out and bought myself some flowers for the day. So this morning i rang my mum and wished her a happy mothers day and wished her to have a great day with my sisters when they take her out to lunch. I wished I did go up there to see her for this day but as usual i was to worry to break down and cry and let her know what going on. The funny thing is I all ready did that this morning, when we spoke. I told her everything about what happen in my life, with my marriage and my children. She was so sorry that I'm going through all this, i find it hard not to talk to my mum about anything, that way i try not to talk to talk her. I love my mum and this day is hard for with dad death anniversary, so we spoke about him and it made us both feel better. She told me not to worry dad is here looking after us and nanna will be to. So here's a photo of my dad and my nanna, this was just before my nanna death. I went to visit her at her grave this afternoon. i just sat there and spoke about what was going on and telling her I miss her so much. people say they start forget what their love ones look like I don't, i can see what my nanna look like just as its was just yesterday. So I'm hoping she heard me and now guide me to what I need to and helps me cope, people think i'm coping but that just the way I am I don't want anyone worry about me. Deep down i not coping at all but I don't want no one to see that because that showing my weak side and I'm not weak.

so a big happy mother days everyone

Cheers Deb

Angels

I find this on a site I was looking through, Well I thought it was interesting. This on how it goes, Heavenly Angels, often referred to as guardian angels, are mentioned numerous times in scriptures. Therein we learn that angels are spiritual being created by god to serve him, and sent by god to watch over the human race, to deliver his message, to guard and protect us from danger, to do battle with other spiritual beings on our behalf. Since the beginning of time, Angels have delivered messages to mankind. Sometimes the messages are warnings of impending danger, sometimes instructions as to what in a particular situation, sometimes they are simply "there" as protection form enemy forces. Sometimes they bring joyful announcements as in the day they announced the birth of a child... The site is called I believe in Angels/heaven Angels....
Well where are the angels now when I need then most. I have a feeling one Angel is my close friend Sharon, I had a feeling people I love have sent her my way, to help me and been there when I fall. I really wish the people that I love were here to help when i fall.... At the moment I don't feel their there or I'm just not hearing them. I really need to hear them. This week is the anniversary of my dads death, I should go and visit my mum. It was hard for my mum to lose my dad especially when it became, were to celebrate mothers day that weekend after his funeral but it wasn't a great day for all of us. I don't like mothers day much, it hasn't be a fun day for us. I wish my dad and my nanna didn't leave us, but they didn't have a choice it was their time. I lost my best friend and my dad, in two years a part.. The funny thing is six months before my nanna died I have a dream she was there telling things will be all right. At the time my husband and I were not together, then after easter she pass away.Stacey was just a baby then and really didn't know her but i always talk about her to stacey. Why can't she talk to me now so I can understand what happening, I need her to talk to me. Yeah I know you all think I'm a idiot sorry, no I not sorry this how I deal with things, I need answer now, what I really need is my nanna. I haven't been to your grave site for awhile, I think it time to visit......... Yep you can tell I'm not in a right frame of mind at the moment..............................

thats it no more I'm going to see if I can dream and get some answer that I'm looking for...

Cheers Deb