Why is the question

This is a question I ask myself often. Why do we do stupid things when we drink to much. Why do friends fight and not talk. Why do people make life so hard to understand. Why do I question every thing I see and hear. Why can't life be so easy to get along and not so complication. Are people so bitchy that they make life so hard. Why are decision made when people don't like them. Why can't people get along and forgive and forget. I am the worst for that one, forgive maybe but forgetting that one is a little hard. Can people give up on life and everyone in it. Can friends be friends for life or this is that hard question. Well from my own life, nope, friends are not for life, some friends. The questions is, is there really true friendship, god I hope so. Why can't people be happy for life and every thing in it. Why are people so lonely and really don't have anyone. What sort of world to do we live in that we can't give people the time of day. Why do people lie to make themselves feel better. Why do people lie to rise up the work ladder and don't care who they tread on. Why is the world so cruel to everyone and things in it. When do you know it time to walk away from everyone, before you get hurt, or hurt the people you love. Why are men bloody asshole to live with. Why do women have to go through change of life . Why does the heat make people go a bit crazy. Why does it hurt when you love someone so much you can't live without them. Why does it hurt when your children are hurting so much and you have to stay out of it. These are question I asked myself all the time and i don't seem to get any of the questions answer, is there a answer for these question. If so I hope someone will tell me.
Cheers Deb

This is my daughter baby

Today i went with jess to get her scan on her baby. So its 10 weeks old now and there two week to go before we get over joyed. It has a great heart beat and a very strong one. So here a pic of it.



This heat is getting to everyone, the kids at school and the staff . Today the canteen freezer gave up and didn't like working anymore, we had to find place for ice-cream and the kids were lucky they got free ice creams. Things are not getting any better, I'm trying not to let things get to me. It really hard to think some one you know might have said this, I really should have said some of this to them and ask them if it true. Or it just you been idiot, I thinking it me just being a idiot. What worries me that they will lie to me and i really don't like when people don't tell me the truth. Either to save them the hurt or me but the truth always comes out and then that will hurt me more. It must be the heat doing this.

Cheers Deb

In two minds

Stacey thinks high school is boring and no fun, when she came home yesterday. The first thing was I wish they had a play ground and its sooooooooo boring. She has message me the last two days at school, just to say hi mum and that one of her teacher is scary and she doesn't like them. Hey to honest I agree with this teacher is scary. Well how has my last two day been, i really don't know if I'm happy i don't feel like i am. Shit I have been very busy, but I do miss working with the kids and then i see the other kids from the class I work in and look so sad. I really know how they feel but that life and you have to move on. Which is what I'm trying to do and I do mean trying bloody hard. I thinking to myself is this really what I wanted to do anymore, I don't think i enjoy this anymore. Hey don't get me wrong I love working with kids but it not the same this year. I really hope it improves, but it hard that you know something, that has been said something about you and well I think they said this. I don't really wanted to get into anymore so that enough Gee it been bloody hot the last two days and its not going to get any better. Jess is off to get another scan tomorrow I'm really worry that things are not ok, it was this time last year when she had a miscarriage, at this time of the pregnancy she had lost the baby and they didn't no until it was 11 weeks. Well that enough of my misery.

Cheers deb

Stacey First day

Stacey off to highschool, her first day in year 8. I got her to try her uniform to see what she wanted to wear tomorrow. Wow she sooo grow up in them. She tried different combos to see what she would like, here's some photo of her and of course they couldn't normal photos she had to harm up in them, hey it wouldn't be Stacey if she didn't.

Today Stacey and I went to Australia day cerebration we had breakfast and they had stuff for the kids to do like tattoo's and face paints and there was old cars from Holden's, fords, English cars like minis and Morris minors.

Well tomorrow back at school working with student. The new principal seems ok well at the moment I still have a bad feeling but I'm trying to let it go. Well she has put me in the office some of the time and working with a student in class. Well if you know me, you know I really don't like working in the office but this year shit I will have to. I prefer to work with the kids, it give me more gratitude that working in the office and it helps me with my studies, this doesn't. Maybe its time to move on, I really don't know, but I will just have to go with the flow at the moment , until I decide what I want. Well I better get back to watch the rest of Hex this English show I'm really enjoying it and as well reading the book twilight which is really hard to put down.

Cheers Deb

me silly

Yep that right silly me, I went in to work to catch up with new principal. Yeah I went in for a hour, well only wanted to be a hour but not me. I went to meet Sharon at work to help her move the table in her class, because of her arm. Well did she lets us move them only no she couldn't help herself. To be honest it was better for her to do it because knows what she wants in her class. Then Sharon went home yep I was going to leave then but did I NO. I stayed there I chatted about my uni stuff with Sharon r( yes that right my new principal is Sharon), I always thought one Sharon was enough but bloody two. So I stayed to help move her back into the office then dept principal into her, then the counsellor had to move so by the time I finished it was 3 and I hadn't had lunch so Judy and I went over to the shop and got some lunch then I left at 330. See really I did all this for no pay that how silly I am. So tomorrow back to work for training on our new smart boards. Then the next two days we are working in the office getting everything ready for tuesday back at school. The funny thing is I'm only getting pay for 4hours a week. I will work way more than that.
So who the silly one me, I promise myself I would not do this year but it me I always there to help.

Cheers Deb

Back to work

Well its been a couple of quite days. My un 9 play netball fri, Stacey and Emma starts next friday. Hang out at Sharon on Friday and Saturday, help Matt with his garage sales and then that afternoon we did some painting on the roof. Well back to work soon, I'm dropping in on monday to see the new Principal for a chat. I have to get them to write a letter for the uni to let them know that I'm working this year. I really don't know who class I'm in, well I have a clue I'm with Emma this year for at least 7 hours a week. I really hope i work with Sharon again but if I don't o'well. Well I hope I work with year 5/6/7 anyway, junior primary really is not my cup of tea. Uni starts again soon, which will be fun i really in two mind at the moment if i want to go on with it. I know I like the to teach but it easy to be what I am now, no responsibility but I enjoy helping the student and give you a buzz if you have help them achieve something. I really don't have that much confidence in my own skills and I'm scare of failing. This what happens after of years I being told you never make anything of your life, so why try. At highschool my teacher always told me your better out of school and in the work force. So now I'm trying not to talk myself out of this again and just do it. Can my family handle it again they didn't support me last year. Yeah you can say I'm in one of those moods, hubby is gettting a bit jack at me, not getting what he wants, wanting me to do everything. I think I should have not come home last night it would have been better or mabye not. I need to snap out it, I think I need someone to snap me out of it. Well some photos of lisa birthday night.

Cheers Deb

My friend

Now I can write this, i have been waiting until my friend Sharon wrote it down. This is her story and I didn't think I could write any of this until she has. well the last night she message me asking if I was still up. Then i spoke to her on the phone, she was upset about something. She told me she was having chest pains. So I said get dress I'm on my way, gee I got there pretty quick I was lucky no police were around. So we went to the hospital, they got her in straight away because of the history. Which was good for her, they were taking blood and putting a machine on her. I waited out side the curtain, all i could here was code 2 to bed 4 which was Sharon. Nurse run in and they talk abit more, then again they said code 2 to bed 4, I'm there shit what was going on, then the doctor run in there. Then heard them talking saying everything fine and don't worry. I was worry, I did know she would be all right. As you don't know she hurt her arm the day before, by a local doctor she was told to rest the arm. So when it went from arm to the chest, Sharon got worry that she was having a heart attack. Sharon best friend pass away from a heart attack a few years ago, so you can understand why she thought she was having heart attack. All I could think about was, hey I'm not ready to lose my best friend. I sat with her for 6 hours before they let her out of there. She had a xray to see what was going on, in her heart and blood test then 5 hours later she had the final blood test just to make sure.They were really understanding about how she was feeling. The doc was a blast, he made you laugh and relax. By the end of the night we were having a laugh and then I knew she was going to all right. I wasn't going to lose my best friend. I did have all this written the other day but waited. This is very unusual for me to write how i feel, because it a sign of weakness and i don't like people to know that i have feelings, so they can't use it against me and hurt me. So I have open myself up now and if it wasn't for Sharon I wouldn't have. So if anyone has chest pains get it check out or anything else, it might save your life if you see a doctor earlier.
Cheers Deb

PS Lisa turns 19 tomorrow A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA.

Day trip no 3

Today Jake ,Stacey, Sharon ,Matt, Emma, Sarah and I went to Moonta for the day. It was a beautiful day at the beach and walking around the shop. It was great to have my son come with me today, he doesn't hang out with me much but today he asked if he could come. Here's some photo's from today.







This is the only pic of Sharon I could get, because she is always behind the camera.

Poor Sasha was not happy about getting wet a the beach, she decide to run off with a new family, it was sooo funny to see. This is what she look like. While Jack love the water and had so much fun running in and out of the water. He would try and get Sasha in the water but she didn't want any part of it.







Here's some photo's of the girls and Matt and Jake




Cheers Deb

Here's some more.

Here's some photo's from last night. I thought i might share some more, these picture's are of my crazy kids. My three daughters give them a camera and there no stopping them with it. I did get some of Jake as well. It was a really good night, it was the first time my family was a family. Today Micheal and i had to give our statement to the police. My took a hour and half and Micheal's took a hour. It was really hard to bring it up what happen again and what you seen and how you feel. It was amazing to see how much you remember, then the little things you thought didn't matter and they did. Well update on their progress, four are out of hospital and the other is still in ICU, but is getting there which is a good thing. Well here's some photo's.

Cheers Deb

All my family

What a night, we all went out to dinner for my mums birthday. My big bro's David, Andy and my sister's Carol, Sandie, Colleen. All the grand kids and partners, even my mum's sister and brother inlaw and niece were there. It was great to see my uncle eddy and auntie Nell and my cousin Chris. It was a fun night catching up with my big brother David I haven't seen for years. It was quite funny when his wife walk in and said bloody hell Deb, you and Dave look alike but I said yes , yeah I'm the cute one. Here's some photo's of the night.
These photo's of the grand kids and partners but my niece and two nephews were missing. All of
my family with my mum.






Here's some more of my brother's and sister's family with my mum and my brother's and sister and me with my mum. As well as my auntie and uncle.












The last one is a water feature they had in the window I really loved this pic,It changes colours.
Cheers Deb

Happy Birthday

Yes On January the 9th was my mum birthday. She 80 years old and still going strong. A little bit grumpy but we love her dearly. As family we are all going out to dinner tonight. My big bro is down from Queensland, so mum will have all her children and there is a lot of us kids (6) and most of her grand kids, well just one missing which is my niece she away some where. So when I take some photo's I will show them on here. we are all hoping mum have heaps of years to go, But with her test coming up and her leukaemia, she has lost alot of weight. i know she still in remission which is fantastic. Well mum a big happy birthday and we all love you.
Cheers Deb

Our day num2

Stacey and Emma and Sarah some great photo's of them

Today we went to hills to walk through one of the country town. Stacey, and my mate Sharon, Matt, Emma, Sarah, Matt's mum and I we all went by bus. Which was a adventure on it own, I love the way you can take a bus any where. So we all look around the shops and i took some photo's. One day i will have to scrapbook all these photo that I have taken. Well Our next adventure is of to the beach town, but at the moment Stacey and I can't go. I told Stacey we will go but more than likely on a different day. I know netball training starts next week but i think we can go that day, Only I really need to go and Stacey can hang with me, but she said I be all right for training. Well here's some photo's from today.

Cheers Deb

our family day out.

As i promise some photos of our day out. These were taking by Stacey and Emma. Update the people that were in that car accident are doing better. As the we have phone calls to make sure the kids and us were not still upset or having nightmares.

Cheers Deb

We went to monarto

Today we went on a family day out with Micheal, Stacey and Sharon, Matt, Emma, Sarah and Matt's mum. It start off a great day up there and some of the trip home. First we meet at Sharon's house then we drove to monarto zoo. I really hate curvy roads, I get car sick I have since I was little. The older I got it got better but today it was really bad. I had this feeling i shouldn't go today, I thought the car would break down or something like that. The car was alright, so i thought oh well it be all right. I was very quite today while we were there, the feeling wasn't going away. By the end of the day i was getting better. It was really great up there, the bus ride around the park was fantastic. Sharon got a lot of great pic and Stacey and Emma took some wonderful ones. Then we took a shuttle bus to the feeding spots. We went and watch the dogs and the lions, up close well as close as you can get. The female lions are so cute I love these animals, but funny things is I don't like cats. Then we drove through the hills to get lunch and to the choc factory, love the choc factory. Then Sharon went to get their car fix and we start to go home. Emma came with us, she wanted to hang with Stacey at our house, while Sharon was getting their car fix. We were just driving through the hills when right in front of us two cars hit. Shit did they hit, we were lucky we were just far enough away not to be involve. So that feeling came true and we were lucky. The funny thing is Sharon had a feeling as well, I don't know if her feeling had us involve or it was them. I can't go into, to much as we have to make a properly statement later. I'm really lucky to have a great friend like Sharon to talk about things and not be judge. Thanks Sharon for being there when I need you, lets hope nothing get in our way of our friendship. I will share some photos later of our day.
Cheers Deb

A award for having a lovely blog

Today i find a message from my mate sharon on my blog, telling me that my blog is lovely.
Thanks Sharon http://justmeandthem.typepad.com

Now this little pretty came with its own set of rules -
Rules of this award:
1. Add the logo to your blog.
2. Link to the person from whom you received this award.
3. Nominate 7 or more blogs.
4. Leave a message on their blog, letting them know they are “One Lovely Blog"

1/http://janinekoczwara.typepad.com

2/ http://staceyplace.blogspot.com

Hello to 2009

Welcome to the new year, what can I do to make a better one.
1/ make sure I plan better towards my uni work.
2/ don't let things get to me to easy.
3/ let things or people go if they don't fix into my life.
4/ make sure I'm their for my Children .
5/ Enjoy my work more this year and keep to myself and things.
6/ Have fun in the holiday before going back to work.
7/Need to catch up with one person before it to late .

Well i have alot more to do this year but i might hurt, some one feelings. so I'm not going to say anymore. People will just have to wait and see.

Thanks to my close mate Sharon for letting Stacey and I cerebrate the new year with her family last night and today. I don't like to let people see who i am and I will always be like that but only one or two people know the real me.