Whats going on

I really need to know what I have done to have all this stuff going on around me. First the happy stuff my daughter having a lovely baby girl. Then having that beautiful baby girl in hospital. Then over the weekend my other daughter Lisa was admitted to hospital, I took her to the doctor that afternoon, then I header off to the footy. Then I get this phone call mum I have to go to the hospital the doctor said I have a blood clot. Shit I yell, I told my sisters I need to go Lisa is being admitted to hospital with the possible with a blood clot to the lungs. So i race off from Richmond to Elizabeth to see whats going on. From there on it was test and more test then finally at 9 that night, the doctor told sorry but we didn't do the right blood test we need to do more. Poor Lisa they had to take more blood but the stupid doc couldn't get blood out and retry again in the same hole. Then at 10 30 we finally got the result it was sort of positive to the test so they started her on to injection of blood thinners. More test in the morning she stay there over night, ct scan with injection of radiation in her blood to see if there was a blood clot. the scan showed no clot which was great to end this ordeal, I'm starting to wonder whats next. FOUR more weeks to holiday yes I really cant wait now, i think I have to many stress in my life now and to many more grey hairs I need a holiday. Well still on some stress our school is getting smaller and we will be having less classes next year and now I'm wondering if I will be working next year. I asked if I could go permanent but no our school couldn't afford it. So what do I do try and put my name down at other schools or wait and see what happens. I'm really worry about this, my job is important to me and I like being at school. I really don't know should I try and move on next year, well i have ten weeks to think about it and I should prepare my resume, I hear people telling me you dont have any thing to worry about but i still do, it might come down who can do what.

By the way no more please my head needs a rest.........

Cheers Deb

Giselle Mia

Giselle was admitted to hospital on Tuesday night with a high fever. They thought she had the swine flu, but test came back yesterday say no. Which was a relief, but now we have to wait for all the other test result. She had a spinal fluid take out, Jess said she was so brave and didn't cry much. to be honest this not fair fro a 2 week old baby to go through. Her temp has gone down to normal now, so now they just trying to find out why, but they may never know. Here's some photo's of her in hospital with her drip board on her little arm. Well I have sumitt my Assignment and now I just have to wait and see. Not long to go to melbourne, in 31 days to go, i really cant wait now that I have finished my assignment.

she 11 days old

Giselle is 11 days old and still so beautiful, tonight i went over to see Jess. I got to hold my beautiful granddaughter and I feed her as well. I'm not that great the wind stuff she just wouldn't. Jess was the same she never bought her wind up either so mother and daughter are a like. Or someone my say it karma, jess was like this to me now her own daughter is. I'm having my first babysitting of giselle in oct when jess and chris go to a wedding I really cant wait.

Cheers Deb

Giselle Mia

She a beautiful girl and i love her to bits. I'm so happy to be a nanna, not a grandma that to old and I'm not to old.lol I have some pic to share with you. My closest friend made a lovely page of Giselle and me, which you can see on her blog at just me and them, i really love this page and it very special to me. today I'm off to see Jess and Giselle to see how they both are, I'm very proud of my daughter, i probably don't say that often enough but I am. that it from me and here's those pic...

Cheers Deb

I'm a nanna

yes my oldest daughter Jess had a beautiful little girl today. Her name is Giselle Mia and she was born at 15:42 and weighted 8 6.5lbs and is 49cm long. is she so beautiful and i love her so much.. i could have just held her all day and I cant wait to see her tomorrow. My closest friend share this magic moment with me, she came to see Jess and Giselle with me, thank you mate and you know why. Will have pics later of her and me and Jess to soon, as Jess was just out of recovery and Giselle had to be in special baby unit for 24 hours.
Cheers Deb

To much going on

Yeah here I am it 4 in the morning not able to sleep, to much going on in my head. Jess had her baby shower yesterday, she got lovely gifts from all that were there. We play some games, one was really yukky. We had to work out what was in the nappy, yep that's right. In them was choc stuff and you had to work out what it was. Jess look so happy which was nice to see and not much longer and her baby will be here. I went to a scan the other day with her, the baby is going to be a real chubby, the nurse said wow she never see chubby cheeks on a baby before but she has them. At the scan she was 8 1/2 pounds and still growing, Jess has her next appointment on Tues we think she will be having the baby by Friday its getting to big. Adult daughters when will they grow up never I reckon, my just doesn't like her mother at the moment and her sister and brother. She said some nasty things yesterday and blames me for everything. that is probably why I'm up and things are going through my head, I couldn't believe she could be so nasty and hurtful. I don't feel like doing anything anymore for her and myself shit I really don't want to go out or go to work, i just want to be alone curl up where no-one can hurt you. people can hurt you to easier and think they have done no wrong, but you get the blame for it, why do people do that. i have never understood that all through my childhood and now my adulthood, if I was wrong I would a admitted it and say sorry for it, is it because they don't see they have and in their mind they haven't. One day I hope I do understand this and may be human nature, well I haven't for the last 40 years. That why is easier not to have anyone in your life, i see why a lot of people just don't want anyone in their life it would be lonely but you wouldn't get hurt all the time, keep people at a distance. well that all the gloom and doom for me, i need to try and go back to bed and get some sleep and hopefully my brain gives me a break. On a happier note only 6 weeks to go, to go to melbourne yahoo.

Cheers Deb

I'm back

I'm back, yes I'm here. Someone fell asleep on the way to work last week and hit my stole pole, so all week I haven't had Internet, no foxtel and no home phone. It was shit watching normal t.v, so I end up watching lots of DVDs and visiting my mate Sharon. My school works is starting to suffer at the moment i just cant get into and get motivated. I have a assignment due on the 27 Aug and did some of it my my mate class today but shit I'm just not interest in it and I'm trying hard to get motivated but it not happening. I'm so bored with it but I don't want to stop, i really need someone to just come up to me and say snap out of it or give me a good swift kick up the ass. I'm working my ass off at the moment, running a school is no fun but I do love the hours and the money, well I will find out tomorrow. I do miss working in class and do i say it with the student i work with. That's it for me now. Melbourne in 7 weeks and two days come hurry up...
Cheers Deb