My Nanna

It her birthday tomorrow she would have been over 100. So out of respect I will be having this on for a week. You were such a wonderful person and one of my favourite. You never judge me and you help me grow and god how much I miss you and love you. My heart is always in pain and missing you, I miss the talks we had and how I could tell you anything. I miss that so much because it was so hard to find that special person where I could talk to but I did and she became my best friend. Sometime my life is hard and I do wish you were here. You would know what to say to me and keep me calm and just love me for who I am and that what I miss most your love and understanding of me, where no one takes the time to understand me. I should have listen to you about you know who but I didn't, I should have done what you said when you asked me that question 29 years ago. Im glad you got to meet all my children, it was just a shame Stacey never got to know you like I did, you would have loved her as much as you loved my other three and me. I wished you could have meet my best friend you would have love her to. I know one day I will see you again and sometime I looking forward that day when I can see you face again. I don't know when that will be but is all I say there.

I wish I could just hug you and kiss you one last time. Happy Birthday Nanna. Always in my heart. Love your wonderful Granddaughter Deb xxxxx

I need

I need to feel better, I need to run away and run far. I need to be by myself. I don't want anyone to worry about me and I need to be forgot about.

Miss me but let me go

Heaven Got Another Angel - Original Song (Gordon True)

Goodbye My Friend By Linda Ronstadt

In The Arms of The Angel - John Barrowman [lyrics]

It's time

I tried to get it out of me with the boxing bag. No it didn't help.

So

Im So over this life bring on the next please. It just might be a lot warmer there than here. To many around me just don't give a shit about what's happening here.

No I don't

I don't want to hurt people I care about and love. If I do please forgive me. I don't mean to. The dreams are so really to me. This is all I can say the rest is written in my book. The book from a very close and special friend that means the world to me.

Beautiful Mess - Kasey Chambers

All about me,

If you glance down and find yourself wearing a pair of ruby slippers (figuratively speaking, at least) don't be disturbed. Only by clicking your heels together three times can your dreams come true. Sure, it sounds Pollyannaish, but you won't know if you don't try. Start clicking. Tactfully avoid revealing that secret to the entire crew. Pull your friend aside and have a private tete-a-tete. Discretion really is the better part of valor. Ever feel like you're being pulled in 72 different directions at once, without a clue about which way to go? That's how you'll feel now -- except this time out, you'll be keenly aware of the source of this tension. That said, get busy alleviating it. Representatives from several different areas of your life are vying for your attention. The problem is that you really shouldn't be distracted by anyone or anything other than work.

Sleep

What is sleep, I wouldn't know lately. The nightmares are there but it coming a different way but ends up the same End. Me getting hurt or worse, I got to stop this.