week 7

Wow school term is nearly over, then we are on holidays for 2 weeks. Some days i wonder what I'm doing here and then I still wonder. Gee over the last couple of weeks i have kept my dentist in business, I can tell you something i don't want another tooth out. I begging you just give me fillings now for awhile before the last tooth comes out, this pain is no fun. I was supposed to go to Melbourne next holiday but due to something it not happening at the moment but it will soon or later and I know Stacey is disappointed but she understand and I love her for that. I need more excitement in my life it starting to get a bit boring but I just don't know how to get what I want and things just don't go the way you want. Maybe I need a good night out and see some bands and have a few drinks with some good friends, or just need something. i feel there is something missing at the moment i don't feel content at the moment and I just cant seem to put my finger on it.
Well that it for now

Cheers Deb

the old and the new look

After work today Jake rang me and asked if I would take him to get his hair cut, yeah i can do that.So we are at the hair dressing and I was watching then i look again and my god he lost all of his long hair yeah was the first word out of my mouth, it my Jake again.

Now this Stacey new look, she decide that she had enough of  the blonde look and asked if I could dye her hair so she gone to reddish brown and it looks beautiful.

Cheers Deb                                                                                                                                                

life can be so hard sometimes

People come and go in your life and when they come and then suddenly they disappear and left you wondering why did they come in your life in the first place because they leave a big hole. Really if you don't let them in, then they cant do any damage to you, which is a very good motto to me. Everyone leave sooner or later and always wonder why, what have I done wrong this time and why did you leave me here alone again and why I cant I go. So why do some people go through life thinking this and why do people go through life not caring if happens to them, is it because they don't have a heart or they just don't  care about people. Well I was always like this and sometimes it will be so easy to go back this way. It so easy to be not around people that will hurt you and it will be so easy not have anyone close to you. Then I look at my children and my granddaughter and wonder I cant be that person because of them. They make me care, well some times. Stop coming in my dreams, this time I wont do it this time, why do you always want me to wreck my life. Yeah you are probably think I'm going crazy but I'm not. Why do you show me things in my dream for what my life will be like, if I'm alone again. Why do you invade my dreams to give the lies or is it the truth and if it does happen I will be alone again, its that you what. I don't want that, so stay out or i just wont sleep for awhile until it stops. Maybe I am going crazy and or just the sub concussion. Just stay out of my dreams you cant hurt me anymore.......

Happy Birthday Giselle

Happy birthday Giselle, she turn 1 on friday and on saturday we had a party for her. Here are some photos for the weekend. As you can see she had a ball so did we all. I cant believe one year has pass.

The last pic is of my sisters and I this very rare for us to have this, so when i can i will try and get one.

watch out

Yes be careful what ya say to people, because it always come back at somewhere down the line. What you said was very hurtful, but I don't think you realize how hurtful it was. I don't think you even thought about it, because if you did, you might have realize what you said and how much it has affected me.

Feeling a little better, which is good.
Well that's it for tonight.

Cheers Deb

sick

Well yesterday did training for work, bloody hell long day when not feeling well, start at 9 and i finished at 5.15, so I didn't get home until 6, then I had to cook tea no one else would. Got up to go to work, not bad  but then by 9.30 i wished i was home again felt dizzy and hot and clamming, so did the teacher i was working with. By the time i finished working in  class and move to the next they told me go home, your looking like shit so I did. Now just laying on the couch and that's where I'm staying for now. All I want is just to get better and be me because i don't feel like me at all. I really had enough of this and being sick is so over rated any way, no wonder I avoid it.

Well of to sleep for me now.

Cheers Deb