Yesterday

 

Wow boxing day is the best, just hanging out with my mate Sharon and finally we got to open our pressy from each other. This is what Sharon gave me and I really love this one because she made it and she has put alot of thought and love in it ( well made with a little love in lol). I got her scrapbooking goodies and it wasn't easy because has everything you see, but I asked a very special person to help me. Sharon is on her design team, so I thought she would be the one and yes we did come up with some thing really nice for her and things she doesn't have finally. So here are the things Sharon got me for Christmas and the mirror is so beautiful and this made me feel so special because it mine. I have a special place already for it. Jake asked what Sharon made for me, I said," the mirror". He said, "it was beautiful".

I think with cocktail mix we might have to try these on new year eve.

Thank you Sharon I love it and I'm glad we got to share these pressy with each other again.  :)

Cheers Deb

well things did

You know how I wrote things couldn't get any worse well it did. I lost a very person in my life tonight and it hard knowing this, we always spent Christmas eve but not this year. We spent it a part and i know I was miserable, my daughter felt like it was her fault and I kept saying know it wasnt, so she is feeling really bad about it. I was glad she got to see her best friend even if it was just for a minute and it was better than nothing.
Well merry christmas not is all Im going to say.

Cheers Deb

Christmas

Christmas is in 4 days, I'm not ready at all and I ready don't want to have Christmas, if I had my way sleep until boxing day but nope. Yeah in a strange mood as someone would say. I'm trying so hard to get back in my uni studying but just cant get it, work hasn't help and put some much of my confidence out of wrack. I think do  want it as much as before and the answer is no but I do want to be a teacher or work with kids. I had look at my hours and who Im work with and that not going to happen, not working on one:one. Cricket we lost again, I'm not enjoying the lost part but I don't know if I can play anymore. I love cricket but I just cant get into any thing and really no one understand because they know where they are and happy to be where they are, I'm not.  I need a change but what is the question I have never been this bad, I love who I am and love what I did but now I hate who I am and what I want.
Thats is for now and let see whats happen tomorrow......

Cheers Deb

fun day

Today was a fun day, it started off with Sharon and I at the gym. Then we went back to her house and change and then went off shopping. We went to ttp and look around the shop and we just hang out with each other. Then we went to the nail shop, so Sharon could have her nails done again, my god it took over hour, but that cools we just sat and talk and I watch how these women fill and design and paint your nails. Then we off to the movie, well that was a downer but it didn't matter we were just hanging out with each other that's all it matter. Then went food shopping for her hubby birthday tomorrow and grab a cake to for it. I hope he enjoys it and appreciated all the effort she has put in.  Well thats it for now.

Cheers Deb

So Sad

My daughter friend die in a car accident early this morning, she was nearly home that is the sad part about this. I feel so sorry to her family and friends.  Couldn't imaged what their family is going through, Just think what it would like if I lost my children and how I would feel. I can only be here for my daughter when she needs her mother but it something she will go through on her own. When I lost my three friends to a car accident when I was 15, no one could help me even though they try. All I wanted was to be alone and no one near me, the only person that could talk to me was my other friend that was in the car to. Just wish everyone will be careful when getting in a car.......

Dont leave me

I try to talk but things just didn't come out the way I want them to, so I stay silent  for now and hopefully one day i will talk to you about but.... I hope this is not the last Christmas for us and i hope you be here for the next one to. If I loose you what am I going to do, you have been my rock and I don't know if i could go on with out you in it. I know if you have to go and I will say goodbye for now until we can be together again. Your are always in my heart today and yesterday and tomorrow...........

yep

Went shopping with my sisters and it wasn't to bad. They told me my mum dog is dying from cancer and that's not good for my mum or us. so much i want to Say but just hurtful and to close to my heart and really not a place to say. All I can say it worry and scared and hurt.

Cheers Deb

holidays

Well holidays are here, I don't know what to do, well i know i have lots of housework to do but don't want to do that. Tomorrow lunch time off with my sisters to shop for the nieces and nephew Christmas shopping. I'm really looking forward for that not. I don't know what to do for Christmas now, my plans are gone to hell, that's another reason I hate Christmas. Some good news I have lost some weight and cm all over my body, so the gym is working and I love it. I'm lucky I have Sharon support at the gym I might have given up by now. well that's it for me tonight just bloody so tired and i need some sleep..

Cheers Deb

Stacey

Stacey a bit Angry at me, I wont let her have her lip pierced, I don't think she will like it later. I have no problem with her having her nose pierced but lip no no. So she not talking to me at all any more and mean she not. It was a quiet ride home tonight after cricket. Well I hope it no long she start to talk to me, but at the moment no.

Cheers Deb

Cricket Career

Wow this is my cricket career, over that 6 years but if I didn't play for another team I would have been 70 games but that life. so I have 3 more season after this, to go for my 100 game my god can I do it. I'm really proud of what I have achieve and I enjoy knowing I have hit a lot of runs and more to come.



Cheers Deb

Last week

Yep we are on the last week of work and I really cant wait for a break. I still be going to the gym everyday with Sharon, well I hope with Sharon. Then after new year off to my sister place for a week long rest and rest. I really looking forward heading there with Sharon and her family, just laying around on the beach going for long walks and going around the leg and foot and just sight seeing. Bring on the holiday and now i have to see what happens next year but for now I'm just going to enjoy my holidays and think about it next year when I get back form holidays. This is the only thing I can do I cant change her mind but just see if I can make things happens.

Cheers Deb