over it

I am so over it I couldn't believe it. I got told it my turn and tell you I don't mine being my turn for my mum. This weekend Im off out with my besties and old school friends and work mates and staying out in town and but now it my turn and I asked if one of them could do. No we being going up and it your turn and we have a life. Gee when they cant make it I do for them but when I ask no no no.. All I can go to hell and Im so over them all.

This is crap

This feeling of be so down and understanding why. Feeling like shit is not fun at all. All I want to do just drink and Not think and feel. Sometimes I wish this would just stop. It hurt to feel this way and I just sit and cry. Please can anyone stop this and just finish it. Maybe I stop it.