Out creating

Today Sharon I'm head off to Scrap booking and card making day, what a interesting day and its was fun. I will show what I did another day but just cant be bother at the moment. some of it I gave to Stacey to have because she like it. Well I'm supposed to be studying but I thought I would have a night off and tomorrow back to it. I wanted to write more but I showed someone it and then they said no, so I agree that wouldn't.
So bye for now..
Cheers Deb

High school reunion

Over last few days I had emails back and forward from guys i went to high school with. We are having a reunion next month. i cant believe there is a site on facebook on our school where everyone is. So far we know there at least 6 from my years and there a lot from after me going. I even caught up with a girl that lived across the road and we went to primary school then high school together but after the first year we didn't hang out together.... I was to much of a rebel, I had Stacey laughing alot today with the comment of how the perfect guys were here and the rebels were here and guess which one I was.... The perfect lot had perfect hair, perfect skin, perfect students, the perfect boyfriends, sorry I mean older boyfriends. Yeah I did have a older boyfriend at high school and that didn't go down well with the perfect people. I have being chatting with one she still look so perfect......

Well off that subject here some cards I made at Sharon's card making class couple of weeks ago. I love these classes it really fun and interesting, Sharon and I are going to a all day one next weekend, I think they make cards and other things. i enjoyed doing this stuff with Sharon, it give us some other stuff together and time just to hang out with each other.... Well that's it from me I have a very sore head and i need to rest it before work tomorrow....

Cheers Deb

really had it

I had it enough of this life, all i want is just to start my life all over again. Go back in time and just start it again and just maybe it could improve and i could just change a couple of things. I would have finished my school the way i should have, stop all my friends from dying at a young age. Maybe i would have stood up to more people that have hurt me or maybe forgive them instead. Nah the forgiving would never had happen to hell of lot of those people..... I'm still haunted by alot of them and funny thing is they are still haunting me now..... I really wish people would grow up, maybe I just starting to see that I'm bloody old as i keep getting told......Or maybe i just don't want to turn that bloody age 50, it scare me because there is no return once there and life can end even more quickly once there... I think the lack of sleep and stressful life maybe doesn't help this feeling or maybe i just another holiday away from here and everyone in it...... Or maybe just give up on life and it has with me...
Play cricket tonight and just being on that field didn't help the way i feel, even with me running and driving just to see if pain in my foot and my body would make me feel better but nah.... Even the pain could make me feel... I just feel dead inside.....
Well that's it for now, i need to try and get some sleep if my brain will shut down....

Cheers Deb

gee its been along time

Wow I haven't written anything for three weeks, just nothing to say and nothing worth to say. Well three weeks of work down i have 19 hours which is good but don't how much longer i will have these hours, well I know for sure its for two terms. Uni starts in about month and i really still don't know if i want to be a teacher anymore. The fire has gone an I really don't know how to get it back. Well today I took Stacey the hair dressers and she got her hair cut and style 30 dollars later but it looks good. She looks so beautiful with her new hair cut. heres so pic of her with the new look.


Well what have i done for you treat me like this, like I dont matter and not important enough to be around you expect me to ask for things and not just tell me but I wont do that and i never will, i can see the age gap between us now, so why is this happen. i will still be here for you but not the way it was but the way i want to be...... This is life

Well thats it from me, I really dont have much to talk about, so see ya

Cheers Deb