congrats

I like to wish my best friend a big congratulation on her nomination, it was great to hear and she does deserves it. She is  a wonderful teacher, when or hope I ever finish uni, I hope I will be just as good as her. She has help me so much with my assignments and supports she has given, it just amazing and sometimes I wonder why. Her nomination is the pride of Australia award in teaching, I hope she gets it but if she doesn't, its just would a honour just to be nominate, just knowing that someone has so much respect for your teaching is  just wonderful. A BIG CONGRATS MY FRIEND SHARON

well what now

Not going out this weekend and to be honest, I really need it now and i wish I had someone to go with me but I don't so its staying home for and celebrate my after birthday on my own. I'm decide I will never celebrate my birthday again and I wouldn't plan another nite again for it, it a waste of time, because no-one will make the time to go out with ya. Yeah it might sound a bit bitchy but back luck that's how i feel at the  moment and very hurt about it. I change my plans for everyone but no more will I do that for anyone ever again. As you can read I not in a very happy mood, just check my last maths assignment and it wasn't pretty and I written to the head of maths because i wasn't happy with my tutor comments and the  way I fail it and now I have to repeat this one again. Maybe I just not cut out to be a teacher and maybe I have just say enough is enough. My dream will have to come to a end again, it did 33 years ago and now maybe it has to again and just be only a bloody SSO, or maybe I should work at McDonald's. It probably where I should be because I'm not smart enough to be a teacher and maybe a I shouldn't be a SSO either. Well it time for me to go and do some thinking and I wont tell anyone what has happen today and no one will know that.

Cheers Deb

Have I made the right decision

I'm starting to wonder if I have made the right decision about sending Jake to Melbourne on his own in a month. He going to stay with a women i really don't know and her family. He is supposed to be work experience with her, he will be working with snakes, crocodiles and other. He happy but I'm going not be happy until he back home with us and she has promise me he will come home.  Gee I need a drink or two this weekend but no one to have one with me. Lisa is still going but need to find someone to take over the lease of her house. I'm supposed to going out this weekend well, I haven't said yes or no at the moment I don't want to go, well while I was writing this I got my mess from my old school buddy, saying she cant go, oh well. Happy Birthday to me then hey. Thats it Im not having anymore friends, they are just a waste of time, im sick of being the one thats at fault and they wont talk to ya . I still haven't look at my uni result and I don't want to but I need to soon but I might wait until I'm with my bestie with me to see it. I really scared to see if i pass it and I really worry because I don't want to repeat these unit again, it just making so hard to keep up, fingers cross..
Well that's it from me

Cheers Deb

decision to be made

Looking through facebook today just see what was happening in  the world, find out my friend from the high school days, who daughter is going through a very hard time. One of the boys who went to school with her pass away  in a car accident, which wasn't his fault but being in the wrong place at the wrong time. That bring a lot of memories back when three of my friends die in a car accident when i was in high school. So i know what she is going through so does her mum, we all went through that, well i was a lot more than her because one was my ex boyfriend we broke up a week before and the other two were my friends. Now my daughter has a very big decision to make i cant help her with this one but support what ever she decide. She been asked to go to gold coast to work, do I or don't I. We told her we will support her no matter what she decide. If it didn't work out we would help her come home, but I would miss her she my daughter but she give me a lot of grey hair, and sometime she can be very selves but she my daughter. Now Im sitting here with tears in my eyes, not only because of my daughter, because other decision that I have to make, i really dont know what to do, so I'm doing the do I or dont I. I want to but I want someone to come to.....  Where is my Guardian Angel now when I need them

Back from camp

Well camp been and gone now and we have two weeks left of school ya and we are on holidays and I really cant wait. It time to rest and enjoy my life for a change and not to worry about other people. Number 3 of the twilight is coming soon and I really cant wait. Sitting here with my beautiful granddaughter Giselle, she has just pulled everything out of her nappy bag and I just put everything back in it and now she back pulling everything out again. Going to watch my beloved footy team today, well I'm not convinced that we are going to win but I still watch them win or lose. I will show some camp pics later my Internet is so slow at the moment. Be having a lot of family issue lately but I'm hoping they will settle down soon. I feel like no one wants me around lately and everyone is so mad at me and i really don't know what i have done wrong but I don't really care anymore, if people don't like me and don't want to talk to me, it just a waste of my time to worry about and it their lost not mine because it will not only effect me but other someone else and I hope it doesn't because it has nothing to do with this person. Well sitting here wondering if i pass my uni exams or even my assignments with my Internet being so slow and haven't seen it yet.   Well I need to get back and watch Dora with Giselle.

Cheers Deb

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the start of my exams and I really not ready and very scared about, I have never and i mean never sat for exams in my life. Not in high school i left before they started and the test I Had was just the normal ones in high school, they didnt really matter these do if i dont pass these then i have to complete these units again, I really dont want to do that because it makes me more behind and then soon or later I would have to do more than two unit, which i know I wouldnt cope with that.

Well I have some wonderful pics of my beautiful granddaughter Giselle driving my new car.

Isnt she very cute driving here, got love her to bits. Well back to studying maths for tomorrow. Something big happening tomorrow not just my first exam but something else but that for me to know and that how it going to stay.

Cheers Deb