Christmas and not a very good daughter or mother sister.

Christmas started off crap and then lunch happen and seeing my mum has me very worried and hearing what my sisters were saying about her. Then it didn't get any better lisa forgot to put the baby bag in and when we realise it was to late and it was gone, with everything, like her purse and all his baby stuff. So that night i stay home and while everyone else went out. So much was told to me yesterday and so much not saying here. So i'm really worried about my mum.

Christmas

Am I going to survive christmas and the lead up and after, I really dont know if I want to anymore.....

I feel like crap

Today I had a lot plan to do, first do some more Christmas shopping, which is a matter of importance's but no the body wont move and the head is not here at all. Start some new stuff and I cant get the around what its doing to me. I feel like if I don't finish my Christmas shopping.

Not great

Shit what a great day not, first everything went wrong from this morning and hasn't got any better here now. My body is so bloody sore and I just hurt all over. My heart is hurting so much my stomach my head and my legs. These meeting I go to are they helping or are they making make decision, which Im not ready to make. they are telling me things that make me think, maybe they are right about some and they telling me what really people are like. I don't believe them but maybe it starting to make sense to me.

Depression

Depression happens to us all sometimes in our lives. It's not a bad thing and some cope better than others. Just remember always asked if they are ok. Just remember they might not show how they are feeling and how they are coping it doesn't mean they are. Deep down it stays and no one know how they are feeling, everyone is different. So this Christmas have a thought about people who are not coping and families that have lost someone to depression because we all know someone that has lost the battle or not ok. Keep safe

sun

Grin and Bear It Your recipe for success: First, a dash of just being nice, no matter how much you'd prefer to fire your verbal spear at someone's jugular. Next, a pinch of remembering the day (the only day) that you, too, were possibly this annoying and third, a hearty dollop of self-control. You're the hottest show in town. What on earth will you do for an encore? Your audience can't wait! Take a chaperone along if you're shopping, dining out or thinking of investing. Or just keep a friend with a clipboard, legal pad and calculator handy.

Tired

Yes I'm so tired of all the bullshit that goes on and I'm sick of being to feel so down and out. I'm sick of been left out of some conversation and feel, just feel.

Thurs

Absolutely Unstoppable! First thing this morning, find some bodyguards and commission them to discreetly nudge aside anyone who gets in your way. You won't take no for an answer! 'Maybe,' or 'We'll see,' won't work either. Anything less than absolute acquiescence to your demands will quickly lead to a heated situation. Consider carrying a fan! Sure, it's been fun trying to arrange 'coincidental' meetings and asking surreptitious questions of mutual friends, but it's time to put it all on the table. The results might be fabulous! Even if you're not ordinarily accident-prone, you will be now. You can cut down on ER visits if you force yourself to pay attention to what you're doing.

Thursday

Whoops -- There It Is! You'll be dealing with your share of nervous energy, which could be a bit disconcerting to others. Too much tapping of the fingers and watching of the clock could make anyone nuts. Besides, isn't there something you really need to say? If that's what's causing all this, just say it! Getting together with that certain someone may prove to be a bit on the problematic side, thanks to what will seem to be interference from every possible front. Be persistent. tress is the malady of the day, and you'll feel it right down to your toes. Think of a creative use for it -- and feel free to use your imagination here ....

Wed

Just Try Before you decide there's no way you could ever possibly do what 'they' have asked of you, take a moment to think about exactly what it involves. You may be so frustrated with past issues that you aren't able to clearly see your present capabilities. You tried, but you just couldn't shut up and not say those hurtful words. You can't take them back, but you can apologize. The sooner, the better. The only word that could possibly describe how you're feeling now is 'antsy.' Uncross those hands, get up and stop pretending it isn't happening. Do something! Nail-biting doesn't count. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there.

Im so sick of it.

Yeah as the title say, I hate how people play mind games and think its bloody fun. Well I'm not laughing and getting pretty sick of it and really over it. If that what you think of me, I know Im a better person and don't need this at all. Yeah I might be going through heaps of shit and not coping with it. Maybe it is time to move on from everything and that a scary thing but it might time to. I just want to be happy and need things in my life that will make me happy. This what they keep telling me or are you safe every day they are me. I wouldn't plan it, I would just do it and telling anyone I wouldn't do it. This is me at the moment and people just have to put up with it. Until I can get things sort in my head and heart and work out what's going on. They keep telling me things and making me think of things that make things worst for me about others and now every time I see them I think what they said. It just doesn't help me and can make things worst with my life.

Forbidden Fruit

If you're not 'supposed' to do it, if you're not supposed to like it and most definitely if it's something you've been told to never, ever even think about -- well, you're probably on your way right now to giving it a shot. And you'll enjoy it, too. You tried, but you just couldn't shut up and not say those hurtful words. You can't take them back, but you can apologize. The sooner, the better. You're a human steamroller, perfectly willing to take down anyone and anything who tries to come between you and what you want. Do try to cut down on casualties. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there.

I'm sick

I'm so sick of the phone calls they don't help they make me feel worst. I think getting drunk would be better. Today i feel so down and out I made a big mistake. Well I feel so, well I just feel.

Another day

Yeah once again I think I need to take them all and all this will stop.

Thanks

I'm so tired but I had a good weekend with my bf this weekend. It has been a long time for us but it was worth it. Well tomorrow I have a big decision to make and have a chat with someone. I have a pisses daughter with me at the moment but let hope she gets over soon.

Thursday

Them or You? These are the times that try your soul, because deciding between the interests of your dear ones and the demands of your libido won't be an easy thing to negotiate. Ah, well. If all else fails, including the mediation of an impartial third party, take a good, long time-out. Are you spending too much time at work -- or not enough? You'll feel pulled in at least two directions, but think this through and you'll find the happy medium you need. You've got limitless energy -- in all categories. What you do with it is up to you, of course -- but feel free to be very, very creative while you're deciding.

Wed

What Obstacles Damned if you do or damned if you don't. It's certainly going to feel that way, especially if you allow yourself to be fenced in by 'shoulds.' Your mission, then, is this: despite being barraged by negativity -- and despite what seems like an endless number of roadblocks -- look elsewhere for solutions. hey're not how you'd imagined, but here they are -- ready, willing and able you back. Forget the artist's sketch in your head. Enjoy what's in front of you. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there.

Doctors

Im so over the doctors and medication, gave more today. Have to go back in two weeks, gee once they get you they keep making you come back.

Tues

Swallow Your Pride Every so often, you have to admit that you weren't quite on target -- not necessarily wrong, you understand, but definitely not right. Well, guess what? Yep. Do it graciously, and you'll be proud of yourself. Then do something fabulously nice to reward yourself. No matter what you say, your Friends responds like you're just started speaking in tongues. Take the hint. Don't tackle any topic trickier than what you thought of the movie. Admit your errors. Smile, nod and shrug your shoulders -- a lot. Then go back to your room, lock yourself in a closet and have a tantrum, with no expletives deleted. It's not that you really believe that you're superior to everyone else -- it's not that at all. After the coup you've pulled off, however, you may begin to privately daydream about how benevolent you'd be if you were to become ruler of the world. Okay, take a breath. Modesty first. On top of the world -- trite as it may sound, that's how you're feeling. Don't be stingy. Take someone along for the ride.

Afraid

Sometime

Sometimes I wish this stuff would hurry up and works, at the moment I need to walk more and my hand is a little sore well heaps sore. My brain just wont stop and Im trying not to say things that I will regret. I want to say more and want to talk to someone but is finding it hard just encase I say something wrong. Things are going through the head and just wont stop, I'm on edge all the time. Just wants things to stop and really stop.

Stacey

I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 16teen tomorrow. Where has the time gone, when I remember, when the first time I saw her, I feel in love and the love that was shown that day. Then her first day at school and got in trouble for punching a girl. Her realise was she wouldn't leave me alone. Now she is in year 10. God where has the time gone. I love you stacey and happy birthday for tomorrow. Tomorrow means so much to me, it was the day I had Stacey on my own, even know I was on my own there was so much love in that room and she is so close to her sister and brother because of it. Even though I had my sisters there and my girls, I was still alone. I held her so tight I didn't want to let her go. The tears are rolling at the moment and I feeling this is the end of all the closeness we will share, she has grow so much. In to a beautiful young lady and amazing person and caring. I will never forget all the heart ache you had on your life and seen. Your ups and down with friends and your family. watching what Im going through has made us even closer and I have always protect you from all the harm in the world and I will always will. You have a very special place in my heart and no one can fill that part because it yours only, just as your sisters and brother has one to.

Giving Up

All I want

sometimes I wish things were so different but there not and I need to get use it to it. I wish I could take them all at least it might stop. I think one not enough if I take them all then it might stop.

Life is not a bed of roses

Some days it hard to be me, I put a good show on. What going on inside of me no one knows they see the other side of me but never the real me. The pain is so real and it hurts, it has for days and days. I just wish, well I just wish. Is all Im going to say.......... Cheers Deb

Mum's the word

You'll be dealing with your share of nervous energy, which could be a bit disconcerting to others. Too much tapping of the fingers and watching of the clock could make anyone nuts. Besides, isn't there something you really need to say? If that's what's causing all this, just say it! You've had all the bickering you can stand. You're ready to deliver an extremely terse good-bye. Just be sure you don't rush out immediately to find yourself another worthy opponent. After weeks of imploring a certain someone for five teeny, tiny minutes together, they've unexpectedly suggested an entire evening. Tonight. Unfortunately, your place is a mess. So what to do? Duh -- have dinner out. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. If you're with someone whose ego tends to be easily bruised, think before you speak. Tact and diplomacy may not be at the very top of your list of talents now. So are you willing to hold back, or eager to let them know what's on your mind? The easy thing isn't always the right thing. Remember that if you're tempted to ease out of a tough situation through humor or the age-old technique of avoiding the issue. Not saying what you want to will be challenging, and you may have some excess energy you'll need to dispel. Gosh, what are you going to do with it? You won't be alone unless you want to be -- but you probably will want to be. So while you have time, explain to your dear ones that you may not be around as much as usual, but that it has nothing to do with them. Think of it as an ounce of prevention. A tendency to overestimate your own abilities is a side effect of the tremendous amount of physical energy you've been temporarily endowed with. Promising more than you're sure you can deliver is the worst of it. The best of it is your willingness to die trying. You just can't seem to stop replaying that comment they made over and over in your mind. It's time to figure out why. Believe it or not, you really aren't ten feet tall and bulletproof. However, you are extremely powerful right now, both physically and mentally. You're a combination accountant, strategist and political advisor at the moment. What you do with all this great analytical stuff is up to you, but if you're smart, you'll think big, aim at the heart of the matter and expect nothing but complete and total success. You've been quite understanding for some time now, in many categories. It's time for you to call in all those favors you've built up. If you don't have a press secretary, photographer and personal assistant, you should probably ask around for a few numbers. Managing your social schedule at the moment isn't something you'll want to do alone. Of course, you might also enlist the aid of that delightful new friend of a friend. t's impossible to stop you from trying what you think you need to do, and even more difficult to talk you out of saying what's on your mind. Forget trying to stay out of the spotlight, because it's out of the question now. Wear sunscreen if you have to -- the glare will be intense.

Today

Today hasn't been a good day, so tired. I feel like Im going to fall apart but Im trying to hold it together. I have upset Lisa and she not talking to me. As I said a shit day day.

Im not

I not going crazy as I thought I was, it was nice to know that I'm not!!!!!!

my new Grandson

Today my daughter Lisa had her baby, he is so beautiful and she was amazing. Here are some picture of him. I was how many of my mates congrata me on him today and how much they care for my daughter. Connor James 8lb, 51 cm born on the 8/11/11

Today

Today the day, Lisa has her c section and I have been up all night, really scared for her and excited as well. She finally gets to meet her son and I finally get to see my grandson. I don't know what time this will happen but at least this day here. Well that's it for now and I will put photos on here later. Cheers Deb

Céline Dion - Goodbye's (the saddest word) live

This is the most beautiful song I have heard and it has made me cry over and over. It right it hard to say goodbye but we all do sometime in our life. My heart and soul is hurting with this song because this how my children feel.

All by myself - Celine Dion

Missing

Things are going missing lately and it starting to worry me, but I have a feeling who it is bit I need to find out if it true. I would be very upset if it is because it my stuff that has gone. Some of it very much personal and means a lot to me.

head

I'm so tired of everything and I know I am so scared, life is hard but is it. My head is doing stuff and it bloody hurts so much and I can not control it. I hate it and its the worst feeling out. I wish people were in my head and then they might realise it not easy. Your here and your there and I want control of me but I can't and it hurts me so much. So who will care if I just go and run as far I can so things will stop. Well that enough said, I have said to much.

Who would

Sometimes I wonder who would care if I just disappeared, probably no one.

So over

My head so over the place and I don't seem to understand why and i don't like. I should be writing stuff up and I just cant get my head around it. It so not me and I really can't handle it at all. I need to be better but it just not. why WHY WHY.

Me

For those stumbling in the dark, the small glow cast from a single matchstick is of more value than the darkness provided by a roomful of unlit lamps. ~ Whatever the size of your wisdom, your spirit, your gift, let it shine! ~ Sandra Kring Many who loathe themselves will give their last meal to the hungry out of love for mankind, or nurture sick animals back to health even as they neglect themselves. Yes, they often love the wrong person, but they feel this love deeply. So please don’t tell them that it’s impossible to love others if they can’t love themselves. It’s not their hearts that are defective, it’s their perception of Self. ~ Sandra Kring Of all the gifts you can give a friend, the truthful sharing of who you are, and where you are mentally, emotionally, and spiritually is the most beautiful and valuable gift of all. It’s this honest sharing that serves as the thread that sews a friendship into the warm quilt it can be, to wrap around you when life feels cold and unforgiving. ~ Sandra Kring

monday

So over forgetting things and not in the mood to do things. So much to write and so much to tell but not going to, my book is filling up.

If anyone should ever hurt you

If anyone should ever hurt you -Author: Unknown- If anyone should ever hurt you And say a thing unkind, Remember what I tell you, And keep these things in mind. For everyone who makes you cry, There are three who make you smile, And a smile will last a long, long time, But a tear just a little while. If someone says a thing that’s cruel, Don’t let it get to you. There’s so much good about you, And your faults are very few. So if a certain someone Should act a certain way, Just think of those who love you And don’t let it ruin your day. Don’t let someone who hates the world Cause you to hate it too, For behind the clouds is a golden sun, And a sky that’s bright and blue. "♪♥♪" This what I been told to remember.

Not a good day

Well be having some bad days, Friday was a not a good day and yesterday and now this morning. To many thoughts and to many tears and no sleep.

Sun( stars)

Go Easy Do not pass go, do not attempt to collect $200 and do not -- repeat, do not -- allow yourself to be in the vicinity of whoever or whatever it is that pushes your buttons. If you feel yourself losing it, leave. Immediately. Don't waste time pouting if someone suddenly reneges on a promise or disappoints you. You're all grown-up now -- remember? That means getting used to others who aren't. This is no time to pretend there's nothing wrong if you're really furious. You won't be able to, for starters -- and why pass up the opportunity to say your peace? Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. There are worse things than a graceful retreat. Keep that in mind if someone challenges you and you know you're not up for it. "The Ten of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in acceptance. It's over and done in no uncertain terms. I recognize, surrender to or accept the finality of the truth or consequences in order to look to the future or have ""changed my mind."" I let go of all attachment or resistance to sustaining conditions that don't work or are out of my hands. E tu brute? I can't move forward by beating a dead horse. It's the last word so put a period on it and move on. I am empowered by truth and consequences and my virtue is liberation or release from suffering, uncertainty or victimhood."

ME

I have been looking at photos of me Lately, I might have be smiling but in the eyes you can see sadness and something else. You can see the something behind the eyes.

All my life

Strong people don't need others…You let somebody in and they’ll only hurt you…Nobody really cares...If they really knew you, they wouldn’t like you. Brick by brick you stacked your beliefs to construct a refuge to hide in. But ironically what you built instead, is the prison you’re now locked in. ~ Find the courage to scale your walls, or the strength to tear them down. Hearts weren’t meant to live in solitary confinement. ~ Sandra Kring

Me

When your heart is breaking for someone who is broken, but your words can’t reach them, and your love can’t save them, ask their higher angels to go where you cannot, and whisper into the heart of their strong but troubled soul: “We will not give up on you. Don’t you give up on yourself, either.” ~

Don't want to do it again.

Yeah I had a very emotional day today and I didn't really like it. It made feel so withdrawn and disconnect from me.

Wed

Plans in Motion ou know what you want, and you know how to go after it. You may not be quite sure of what to do after you get it, however. Don't be distressed. You'll have plenty of time to consider all that. In the meantime, don't buckle an inch. Go get it! There are worse things than a graceful retreat. Keep that in mind if someone challenges you and you know you're not up for it. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. The Queen of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in liberation. I radiate or communicate personal power, passion, and allure and am not dragged down by trends. I have a bold magical flair and a spirit of innovation and pride. I am secure in my identity or performance and thrive on creating, designing or fostering new or equal opportunities for aesthetic or personal growth, expression or awareness. I am empowered with gratitude, attention and reputation to go beyond the call and I transform through exploring or initiating change."

Me

It's like you're screaming but no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them, you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it's over and it's gone, you almost wish that you could have all that bad stuff back so you can have the good. This me

Remember Me This Way by Jordan Hill

This has been me lately, I hope things are changing. Knowing that I have lost my way and everything else.

My head

My head feels like it not going to hang in, my heart is breaking and my mind just doesn't know what to do. The tears just keep coming and I wish it would just stop. In time I keep hearing but I want it now. I hate this and I hate who I am.

Dalai Lama

Dalai Lama The more adept we become at cultivating an altruistic attitude, the happier we will feel and the more comfortable will be the atmosphere around us. But if our emotions fluctuate wildly and we easily give in to hatred and jealousy, even our friends will avoid us. So even for people with no spiritual beliefs, it is important to have a peaceful mind. This what Im trying do.

Monday

Nice and Easy With very little effort, you'll be the star of the show. And make no mistake about it -- the spotlight will most definitely be shining on you. Before you even think about leaving the house, make sure you're dressed and done up perfectly. After all, your public is waiting. Sit down, smile sweetly and tactfully bring up whatever hot topic you two have been dancing around lately. Wouldn't you like to banish the beast for good? Yes, you're forceful. Really forceful. Just don't scare anyone. It wouldn't be good for business, and you're much nicer than all that. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. Yeah that what save me last week but you need to talk to me more because Im Finding it hard. "The Three of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in opportunity. I lay it on the line, take a chance, and look for signs of positive encouragement. I am open to new worlds and am actively patient in expanding my connection, increasing my standing, or waiting for my ""ship to come in,"" but ""if I can't get to the party, I will bring the party to me."" I am empowered by a sense of responsibility and a readiness to believe and receive and I transform through creative resourcefulness." Cheers Deb

FXXXXXXX

Yes, You give me a number to ring and I do what do I get a some dickhead on the other end, why do I bother. That's it I'm not going to ring you guys ever again. I need to talk and this what you guys say, well no more next time.

Week 2

Well week two and only 8 weeks to go and we are on holidays again. More appointments this week and it going to be interesting. I was very tired by the end of last week going between to school. God I hope it better this week and I hope I can finally work these kids out and get at least one of them to work. They like pushing my buttons but they haven't work out I'm just as patience. I think it time to show I don't take crap any more. Well that's it from me now. Cheers Deb

Every day

Thanks for the call but I am doing ok, well today I am. Yes I know there be another tomorrow and the next day and the next. You keep saying things will get better. hmmm I know. Well back to the private book and draft page,

Stars for today

Wear Power Colours You may not realize how powerful you are right now -- but since you've been told, take advantage of it! You can have whatever you want. Talk to the powers that be, and outline your demands. Be firm, but awfully sweet. You're guaranteed to win them over. They want you to commit, but you're just not ready. They're threatening to leave if you don't. Doesn't sound like the perfect beginning, does it? Think it over. Yes, you're forceful. Really forceful. Just don't scare anyone. It wouldn't be good for business, and you're much nicer than all that. While you're deciding what to wear, keep in mind that black and red really do project an aura of power -- and not just because some fashionista says so. "The Four of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in recovery. Our mutual losses or experience deserve to be acknowledged or remembered with dignity, honor, and respect even as we regroup to move forward. I am willing to work on forgiveness and letting go of the past in order to find peace. It's time to give it a rest. I am empowered by stillness and my virtue is silence." Cheers Deb

Reunion

I had my high school reunion last night, well it was ok. Nice seeing the old gang but boy it was so different from the last one. Lesley and I were ready to leave by 10 but we stay and then I mess a old friend to see they were coming and they were, so we stay. I think that's the last Im going to, Well caught with the old flame and there was no flame there any more, he was a very strange person now, it was sad to see, he was like a little boy, to many hits in the head but a least that's the end of that chapter. There were so many younger ones there not my year level but we all sat listen to the band that play our era songs, which was not to bad. I got told off by the security which was funny, they had a strippers pole and I could help myself, but it was all good she was a pretty good security guard and funny. I hope the photo of it don't come out. One of the girls said see you nearly had us kick out but no way, gee come on have some fun. I didn't drink much which was good and I'm feeling really well this morning for only having 5 hours sleep. So I must be getting to old for all this. We just talk about our kids and grand kids and some about when we went to school, about how went to the tea tree gully disco and ingle farms one to. Well thats it from about last night. Cheers Deb

I know

Every time you ring, the tears start, I know you have to but it hard every time.

God

My god I'm trying so bloody hard, just doing what they are all telling me. Why did I bother going to the doctor. Having a hug from my daughter has help. I'm so sick of the tears, I want me back now but no it will take time.

Friday

Well finally went to the doctor, I think I have really scared him a bit. Well I think it was a lot. Sorry this not for publication it stays with me and him. The only time I write anything about this is in a very private book and in my draft. I need to write this way for me. Tomorrow night is my reunion, it going to be a very interesting night. Very old flame and very old friends just catching up. well that's it for me. Cheers Deb

Thursday

Mum's the Word Remember your mom telling you that if you had nothing nice to say, you should just be quiet? Keep that in mind if it begins to seem like everyone you've ever immediately disliked has chosen today to show up and irritate you further. Silence really is golden. Ready to pose the question? Okay -- but they might not be ready to deliver the answer. Much as you'll hate it, wait. Just for a little while. t may have seemed like an awkward thing to say or do, but you made your point. Trust that, and refuse to think shoulda-woulda-coulda. What's the use? It's time to ask for help. You're not fond of that kind of thing, but you'd better get used to it. Quickly. "The Six of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in validation. I rise to the occasion and am motivated or made confident to take it to the next level by the recognition, admiration, praise, or accolades put on my achievements or personal success. I am newly aware of and proud of my sense of empowerment and I transform through acceptance." Cheers Deb

Star for wed

This have some truth in it this how I have been the last couple of days. Pout Alert! Touchy? You? No way. You may, however, be a teeny bit moody, cranky or oversensitive -- but certainly not touchy. Unfortunately, the rest of the world may not be quite so astute at differentiating between these subtleties. Be nice, even if it's killing you and brag about your incredible self-control tomorrow. Talking them into seeing things your way will come easily, but do you really want to win that way? Sure you do. It may have seemed like an awkward thing to say or do, but you made your point. Trust that, and refuse to think shoulda-woulda-coulda. What's the use? Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. "The Ace of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in cause and effect. With great power comes great responsibility. Do the right thing or state the obvious and the 'pen will be mightier than the Sword.' The truth will set me free. It's the principle of the thing. Get it in writing. I am empowered by intention and my virtue is my promise, commitment or vow." Cheers Deb

Tuesday

I had a really bad today, I nearly quit today but after I thought about it, nope. It will get better there. I just need to give myself some time. All the kids in the junior and the other classes all come and chat to me. In the r/1 they all want to sit with me because I sit on the floor with them. One boy and girl have taken a shine to me, they are always chatting away.  The teacher I work with is ok,  It is his first year but he said I'm glad your in my class, it was nice to hear. They are very supporting  at the school but just a bit lonely. Well that's it, not telling all so that's it.

Cheers Deb

Stars

My stars are so stupid and making me laugh, That's why I keep putting them up. Everyday they are funny and weird and very stupid.

Yes I know

Tonight I find why I need to see my doctor again, I think I scared my cricket team a bit and the other team and myself. It was good and I was lucky someone had something on them for me. It was the first time this happen to me, so I know now it time. Well we made 216 runs and I made 29 not out. On the last ball I found out it was close but hey. I have a very sore and swollen toe where the ball hit me. Can't wait until tomorrow when I cant walk. But that's all good.

Cheers Deb

Sunday

Get Outta the Way!

Anyone who happens to get in your way right now will be bulldozed, trampled and otherwise made to believe that they are not an obstacle worthy of you. Great. Now help them up and apologize. Chances are, they really weren't out to trip you up deliberately.

It's not the flu. It's your emotions, confusing you as to whether the person you're attracted to is really, really great for you, or really, really not. If you're not already a member of the gym or the local running club that meets on close to your work, you should get busy and do it now. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there.
The Two of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in balance. I strive for equality and choose not to indulge instant gratification at the expense of my purpose. I am responsible for my own decisions and take on only what I can handle based upon that which I value. I am empowered by choice and my asset is negotiation.


Cheers Deb

Big Day

Yep tomorrow back at work and big day for me, New place to see and the old one to. I have so much to change with my new pool course today and I have feeling my boss is not going to be happy. Bad luck is what they said to me today, we don't have the safety stuff and I'm putting myself in harms way. Things are changing some for the better and some for the worst, well worst for me but hey that's life. Well that's it for me catch on the flip side of life.


Cheers Deb 

Just some of my stuff

I

One week to go

On Sat its going to be my high school reunion, don't know if I looking forward to it or not. A very old flame is going to be there, he has said some stuff over the last couple of months, which he really should have said 29 years ago not now. At least we will be friends and that all we can be. He has never married and I asked why and he said it because of me. Well by the sounds of it, its going to be a good night, everyone talking about it and more mates from my year level are coming and some I have made friends with on facebook. Cheers Deb

Sat

Watch Your Step Wipe that innocent look off your face. You should be wearing a warning label, and you know it. You're out for wild and crazy experiences, and you won't stop until you have them. Surround yourself with companions who aren't famous for preferring the museum to a night of clubbing. There's absolutely nothing too good for your-- or for the person you're currently interviewing for the position. Those complimentary gifties might be too rich for your budget, however. You don't want to hate yourself in the morning, right? But you know that if you continue on your current path you will, right? So will that stop you? Hmmm .... Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. The Three of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in celebration. I am not alone. I embrace the pleasure of the moment and share the beauty and joy of a common bond within my sisterhood. I am empowered by inclusion and my gift is spontaneous rapture.

Thursday

Say It Now he part in the ceremony where the officiating preacher, justice or rabbi asks for participants to either voice objections or 'forever hold your peace'? Well, you might not be at a wedding, but the choice is the same: speak now or wish you did for the rest of your life. Bet you won't be able to keep quiet. If you must work and your desk isn't near a window, have someone move it. You'll need that window handy so that you can stare out of it, sighing. Everyone who asks how you're doing isn't necessarily just making small talk. A few of 'em might genuinely be interested. Just shine on the others. You can have absolutely everything you want from the higher-ups. They'll be happy to support and advise you, and tip you on how to get where you want to go. "The Lovers card affirms my alter ego is a port key to a Soul Mate or deal, whose superpower is compatibility in the midst of reconciling dichotomy to interconnect as a whole new entity or 'color.' To be or not to be: at ultimatum or rival tensions mounting, negotiating acceptable trade-offs validates our unique perspectives to reflect what each lacks for a balanced voice of truce. When we're together I'm beside myself, so I concede mutual vested interest, incentive or opportunity to my other half for valued consideration. For only by the power of self-respect in reciprocal vulnerability, need and compassion do 'me and thee consummate we.' The rest is all a dance on the sidelines of Cinderella Pandering or prohibition, or around a Bermuda Triangle of bottom line temptation to cheat by provocation, promiscuity, or shame. But here at the gate of impasse, I still have a choice and my pride." Cheers Deb

Beach and shopping

Stacy and I went shopping at Harbour town, we both came out thinking shit I hate shopping. I can always buy stuff for her but not to day. There was nothing, me I want to buy some new clothes there is just nothing I like and really not going to pay 60 dollars for a top but that's me. All the time lisa was ringing me and freaking out a little bit but hey I keep making sure she fine. Then Stacey and I went to the beach, I love this beach and it helps me when I'm need to think and make some decision, well made some but then back to reality nothing has change. Well thats it for now. Cheers Deb

Bro

Catching up with my brother and had a chat, he will know if he ok soon and god I hope so. It on my mind and Im worry about it. Still waiting to hear when my sister- inlaw goes off her op but we still waiting. I think the waiting game is the worst for them. It was great to see them on Sunday and she was looking good, well as good as she can be, my brother had to come to because she can't drive any more.Well that's it for now see ya on the flip side of life. Cheers Deb

Tues

If you don't allow your ego to overinflate, you can make some seriously great professional changes now -- not to mention what will be going on under the surface. Tend equally to both, and you'll wake up with all you desire in a few weeks. here may be trouble in paradise at the moment, but don't do anything rash -- even if you're sure it won't go away. This, too, shall pass -- along with your anger. You can feel it coming and your companions can, too -- which might be the reason behind those raised eyebrows you've been seeing so much of lately. Batten down the hatches! "The Ace of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in capturing the essence. My emotions are valid. I am beautiful and I deserve to pursue, share, and express unconditional love, pleasure, and happiness. I bring new love into the world. I am empowered by love and my gift is beauty in truth." Cheers Deb

Missing

Yeah as you can see I'm missing my friend, Sometimes I just want ring see how they are going but I don't. Then I think and think as it said up top in the quote, I can be myself a round them. Well not much more to say but holidays can be very boring when your on your own . On Monday back at cricket and then I get my life in some sort of order with the bat, I seem to take things out then and then on myself. Well that's it for now, see ya when I have more to say. Cheers Deb

The Cranberries - When You're Gone

This song I played a lot when I lost my nanna and dad, this song always made me feel.



Cheers Deb

The Friendship Song - "Friends are Quiet Angels"

This Is for my best friend




Cheers Deb

Mon

Pride and Privilege f you don't allow your ego to overinflate, you can make some seriously great professional changes now -- not to mention what will be going on under the surface. Tend equally to both, and you'll wake up with all you desire in a few weeks, but hang in there and forget about what you thought was going to happen. You just might be happily surprised. Pushing your buttons will be easy. Your challenge, should you choose to accept it, will be whether to choose the wisdom of silence or the impact of a verbal atom bomb. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. "The Five of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in the upper hand. I can outwit or outlast and I choose my battles wisely. This puts me in a superior position. I know when it's time to hold, fold, or walk away. I am a survivor and am not easily defeated. I am empowered to gain the advantage by turnabout and my virtue fair play." Cheers Deb

Life in general

Last week of school holidays, starting next week thing will be changing for me. I hope for the better, yeah for the better. I think I need this more than anything, good to have change. Not long to go and my Daughter Lisa will have her baby. It not going to be the way she wants but at least now she has come to terms with not having a natural birth. It all good for her own health and we get to know when but that going to be a secret because she wants to surprised all her friends. I going to know because I'm going to be there. Gym is going well finally starting to lose weight again, it could be because under a little stress at the moment and not eating or drinking which is good for me. These holidays have been very different, but all good. well nothing else to say.


Cheers Deb

Sun

Fireworks Galore

Anyone who triggers your feelings will receive a signal (and the transmission quality will be very loud and very clear) that their challenge has been accepted. Whether or not they intended this little emotional prod to be a dare of sorts won't matter. Your response will be the same. Duck! You've got something to say, and your body language has let your dear one in on the secret. So before you have to lie about your feelings, just say it.
Pushing your buttons will be easy. Your challenge, should you choose to accept it, will be whether to choose the wisdom of silence or the impact of a verbal atom bomb.
"The Temperance card suggests that my alter ego today is the Mediator, whose superpower for negotiation lies in my innate ability to create the right chemistry within a particular situation. I am a continual work in progress. I strive for equality, balance and compatibility -- driven by my innate sense of fairness. This provides a certain degree of predictability in my actions, and is my recipe for success. As in all things truly worthwhile in life, love is an art, sketched and painted atop a canvas of mutual respect. Such a foundation allows only for the occasional brush stroke to cover a mixed message or misunderstanding, and avoid use of the paint roller. Take it one day at a time, valuing all things with such an openness as to provide not only the proper balance, but to allow for proper action when needed."


Cheers Deb

Port Adelaide Festival

Today I and Stacey went down to the port for there festival, It was a quite fun day and relaxing. Here are some picture of the day, all with Stacey. Later that night we wait for the art work done with lights, all about port.

Friday

Don't Get Comfortable


That odd, vaguely uneasy feeling you've got? You're not crazy. There is something strange going on, and you don't have any idea what it might be. Just don't be too upset about it. Some surprises are wonderful -- and sexy and long-lasting, too. Just get yourself directly front and center -- and look good when it happens.
You're nervous and edgy, but you can't figure out why. Everything seems to be going so well, right? Right. But a good friend's objective opinion wouldn't hurt, either. The Ace of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in cause and effect. With great power comes great responsibility. Do the right thing or state the obvious and the 'pen will be mightier than the Sword.' The truth will set me free. It's the principle of the thing. Get it in writing. I am empowered by intention and my virtue is my promise, commitment or vow."


Cheers Deb

Thursday

Touchy, Touchy!

The easy thing to do is to forget how well you were brought up, and let the cause of your irritation and frustration have it right between the eyes. Unfortunately, as you already know, it's not the right thing -- and you won't feel good about yourself afterward. Kickboxing, anyone? Nobody said being in love was easy. It's usually a trade-off. If it's not a fair one, it's their turn to give in -- and your turn to remind them. Feel like you're swimming upstream, and getting tired fast? Then stop fighting the tide. Let go, and learn to surf. "The Tower card suggests that my alter ego today is the Survivor, whose superpower for revolution lies in my epiphany for change, brought on with the aid of a serious reality check. Today I have reached a turning point. It may be all over but the crying -- but I have the strength to move on and create a better situation for myself. You may say that I never saw it coming or learned the hard way, but with profound change comes new opportunity. One door closes -- another opens. So tear down the wall, and rebuild anew."


Cheers Deb

Wed

You're the very soul of compromise, cooperation and hospitality at the moment, so if you have an apology to deliver or accept, this is the perfect time to do it. Every encounter you have is destined to be quite pleasant in a variety of interesting ways. as communicating always this easy for the two of you? Have you always been able to finish each other's sentences? Who cares? Enjoy it! Nothing will motivate you more than doing something wonderful for someone you're sure deserves it, so don't hold back. Pretend you're Santa and dole out the goodies!

Cheers Deb

Just me

I stuff everything up all the time and hurt to many people in my life. When Am I going to stop this shit. Maybe they should never come near me again or be friends with me ever again, this is what I deserve.......


Cheers Deb

Tues

You'll be ready for anything, from no-shows at work to appointments broken at the very last minute. If, however, someone should try to lift some responsibility from your shoulders without asking your permission ... well, there's some things you just can't let slide, even in your currently wonderful mood.
Don't fall for that 'if you loved me you would' stuff. It may have worked like a charm on you in the past, but you've moved past that -- right? 'Slow and steady wins the race.' There's a reason that saying has become famous, and you'll know that reason right down to your toes right now. "The Two of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in attraction. I have a vested interest or am committed to sharing my vision, ideals, or game plan in order to make a connection. I am willing to step up because it takes two and I can't win if I don't play. Anything is possible. I am empowered by the passion of my own potential and I transform through self-discipline."

Cheers Deb

Mon

No more hiding out. The world is waiting -- and if you're honest about it, you'll admit that you've been waiting for it to find you. Now that it's all out in the open, come on out and step into your spotlight.
You'll be clearing your throat quite a bit at dinner, and excusing yourself several times. Just face it. You're not quite ready. Don't push too hard.
You're not quite comfortable with the way things are going, but at least you have a plan -- which is more than your opponent can say. "The Three of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in opportunity. I lay it on the line, take a chance, and look for signs of positive encouragement. I am open to new worlds and am actively patient in expanding my connection, increasing my standing, or waiting for my ""ship to come in,"" but ""if I can't get to the party, I will bring the party to me."" I am empowered by a sense of responsibility and a readiness to believe and receive and I transform through creative resourcefulness."

Cheers Deb

Sun

No more hiding out. The world is waiting -- and if you're honest about it, you'll admit that you've been waiting for it to find you. Now that it's all out in the open, come on out and step into your spotlight. Oddly enough, you'll be exactly where you need to be and exactly when you need to be there to meet the person who's exactly right for you. You're not quite comfortable with the way things are going, but at least you have a plan -- which is more than your opponent can say.


Cheers Deb

Lisa

I'm so sad for my daughter Lisa, She having a baby shower. The thing is her so called friends are saying they are coming but now something better coming up, we cant go. So a footy games is better than her shower and poker game is better than her shower. To be honest I'm so pissed off. The funny thing is the game doesn't start until 3.20 and her shower start at 1.30, you would think they can just make appearance, then go but no. People would say but what if your teams is in the grand final what would you do, hmm which is a good question. Well I would think shit but I have been invite and This only happens once a baby shower but footy games are always there, but my footy is important to me but hey so are the people I care about. I would go to both, even if I miss the first quarter but I would still go. This is me, I have miss things, but hey that's who I am. I don't expect much of people any more after this and other things. Not any more. You know it would be different if it was important but a footy game and a poker game not. At least she have the important people there who care for her and some of who friends that coming are missing the game because she is important to them. :)

Cheers Deb

Sat

Okay, so let's call it what it is: a really volatile, really crazy kind of day. That doesn't mean anyone is going to have to talk you off the ledge, but you might want to talk yourself out of any extremely dramatic displays. Please? 'Loose cannon' doesn't quite describe the way you're feeling -- but it's pretty darned close. That, and 'loaded for bear.'
Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. "The Five of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in the upper hand. I can outwit or outlast and I choose my battles wisely. This puts me in a superior position. I know when it's time to hold, fold, or walk away. I am a survivor and am not easily defeated. I am empowered to gain the advantage by turnabout and my virtue fair play." Anyone who comes across as bold, brazen or less likely than most to buckle under extraordinary pressure will absolutely capture your attention. "The Magician card affirms that my alter ego today is the Imagineer or Director, whose superpower is a state-of-the-art design force. By bringing free will and intention together with natural principles, the creative process is transformed into a blueprint for success. The spell is cast, and I don't have to see it to believe it. As a creative wiz, I have what it takes: the presence of mind to do what I do best. I can apply or advance new ideas and entertain new possibilities with resourceful and inventive attention to detail. I lay it on the line. I set the stage for performing my own enterprising experiments to make it over and make it work. I leave it all behind so that I can simplify or renovate the formula. I read between the lines for tips and tricks to following conventional methods and guarding my reputation and my privacy."

Cheers Deb

My Family

Today My family and I went to the yorke peninsula to see my mum and have lunch together. Here are some pic off the day. This has been a long time having all my children together and my mum. This could be the last photo of us all together, well I hope not. Today I been Married for 28 years.









Cheers Deb

Thursday

Oh, there's just no stopping you now. No one will want to, and you won't have even the slightest inclination to do it for yourself. That said, you should probably be on guard against being excessive. You should -- but you won't be. Better take tomorrow off right now.
Anyone who comes across as bold, brazen or less likely than most to buckle under extraordinary pressure will absolutely capture your attention. 'Loose cannon' doesn't quite describe the way you're feeling -- but it's pretty darned close. That, and 'loaded for bear.' Hi Debra! Here is your Daily Tarot Card for Thursday, September 29

"The Devil card suggests that my alter ego today is the Risk-Taker, whose superpower lies in my laughing in the face of limitations, possibly guided by my obsessions. I will watch my step today and know that I need to take responsibility for my actions -- no one can shoulder that burden for me. 'I know it's wrong, but it feels so right.' My obsessions are in control and I can't help myself -- I'm addicted to love. But you just may be hurting the one you love. So either go with it, or exercise self-control and avoid those temptations that may come back to haunt you."


Cheers Deb

Lady Gaga - Hair LIVE - iHeartRadio For Jamey Rodemeyer

This made me cry and when i find out about him passing away and he was on 14.

It Gets Better, I promise!

This the most heart broken thing I have seen in a long time, how can kids treat a kid like this. I watch this on sunrise this morning.

Wed

If you can just cross off a few items on that to-do list, you'll be amazed at how easily your efforts will produce gold. Unfortunately, yawning and edging your way back toward the couch may be all you can muster up the energy to do. Oh, just give it one good try. Someone who loves you to pieces will be oh-so-eager to prove it to you. Your mission, should you bravely choose to accept it, is to let them. Don't spend too much time fussing over your outfit. At the moment, you could wiggle into a burlap sack and be just as devastating as if you were wearing Dior. our guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. I think she just did.

Cheers Deb

I really love this one and its so cute.

Tues

What a night we had our school concert and it was great performance from the all the student, gee the walk home was good it bloody nice just relax and enjoy some time to me and I need to cool down after all the running around. well off to a meeting tomorrow which going to be interesting and I looking forward to it. Even if you're ordinarily the life of the party, you may not be in the mood to pull that off now. In the meantime, don't start anything new, especially if it's inspired by guilt. You'll get through this via tried-and-true dear ones. Let everyone else wait for your call. "The Ten of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in acceptance. It's over and done in no uncertain terms. I recognize, surrender to or accept the finality of the truth or consequences in order to look to the future or have ""changed my mind."" I let go of all attachment or resistance to sustaining conditions that don't work or are out of my hands. E tu brute? I can't move forward by beating a dead horse. It's the last word so put a period on it and move on. I am empowered by truth and consequences and my virtue is liberation or release from suffering, uncertainty or victimhood." Cheers Deb.

Mon

Even if you're ordinarily the life of the party, you may not be in the mood to pull that off now. In the meantime, don't start anything new, especially if it's inspired by guilt. You'll get through this via tried-and-true dear ones. Let everyone else wait for your call. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. "The Ace of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in cause and effect. With great power comes great responsibility. Do the right thing or state the obvious and the 'pen will be mightier than the Sword.' The truth will set me free. It's the principle of the thing. Get it in writing. I am empowered by intention and my virtue is my promise, commitment or vow." Cheers Deb

This very true!!!!

There comes a time in your life, when you walk away from all the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad, and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right, pray for the ones who don't. Life is too short to be anything but happy.

Sun night

Ever feel like you're being pulled in 72 different directions at once, without a clue about which way to go? That's how you'll feel now -- except this time out, you'll be keenly aware of the source of this tension. That said, get busy alleviating it. Just when you thought you'd actually get some rest, a certain someone will offer up an interesting, irresistible invitation. Oh, go ahead. You can sleep when you're dead. ou won't exactly be a bonfire when it comes to energy -- but get yourself going, and you'll be amazed at how easily you can have exactly what you're after. Representatives from several different areas of your life are vying for your attention. The problem is that you really shouldn't be distracted by anyone or anything other than work. Cheers Deb

Sun later

"The Ten of Swords card suggests that my power today lies in acceptance. It's over and done in no uncertain terms. I recognize, surrender to or accept the finality of the truth or consequences in order to look to the future or have ""changed my mind."" I let go of all attachment or resistance to sustaining conditions that don't work or are out of my hands. E tu brute? I can't move forward by beating a dead horse. It's the last word so put a period on it and move on. I am empowered by truth and consequences and my virtue is liberation or release from suffering, uncertainty or victimhood."

Sun

Well I finally get the truth and now I realise all my life has been a lie, all the dreams I have been having are coming true. Every single one of them and then I went back to the reading I had couple of years ago and what was said then is coming true. All I can say is that I don't want to sleep and dream again. lol Cheers Deb

Sat

Whether or not you intend it, you'll be doing an awful lot of chatting about yourself for the time being. That doesn't mean you're self-centered, egotistical or inordinately wrapped up in your own affairs. And if someone doesn't believe it -- well, all they'll have to do is ask you .... Ready to ditch your job, your home and the person you've been with for the past x number of years? Well, be sure before you do it. This, too, may pass. Ducking everyone who'll be clamoring for your attention may be exhausting, but not necessarily aerobic. You can convince anyone to do anything, though -- including something a bit more strenuous. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. Thinking today, what the different between close friends and best friend or are they the same thing??? Sometime I wonder if they are, then I think well what would I do with out my best friend and over the last week I have been finding out. I think we lucky to really sit and talk or just hang together, it would have been probably about 2 hours all up. I really miss it the talking and just hanging but this the way it has to be and I might not like it but this is life and I have to get use to. :( Cheers Deb

Friday

Even if you're ordinarily the life of the party, you may not be in the mood to pull that off now. In the meantime, don't start anything new, especially if it's inspired by guilt. You'll get through this via tried-and-true dear ones. Let everyone else wait for your call. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. "The Queen of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in intuition and drama. I trust my intuition and nurture an environment of deep devotion, patience, and intense passion. I mirror my hearts desire and am never too busy to connect to those who trust, love and need me. ""It's the thought that counts."" Many can say ""I would die for them"" -- only I can live for them -- spoken with sincerity by a true ""Drama Queen."" I am empowered by embracing my emotions as a gift and unconditional love is my Holy Grail or gift." Cheers Deb

Adele Cheryl Cole Cover Promise This Live Lounge

Adele - Cold Shoulder

Unknown

So much wants to talk to some one but cant, I finding it harder and harder to talk. Tonight I decide to have a few drink, after the week of the unknown and how II feel. I dont know what to say or even ask if you want to do stuff. It not be easy for me. You may feel cut off from others, both personally and professionally, but it's really all in your mind. Truth is, you can make greater strides in both departments if you're brave enough to face whomever you have issues with and find a way to deal with them. Pick another day to discuss the issue that's been hovering in the air between you and a dear one. Let it ride for now. Tapping, twitching and fiddling won't help. You know why you're antsy, and there's only one remedy for it. Get the deed done. You just can't seem to get ahead, and all your best-laid plans aren't working. You need an attitude adjustment. Call a friend, and download. this just seem not going to happen. "The King of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in personal power. I inspire transformation, respect and support by discrete but charismatic example and tolerance. I am an instrument for dynamic, responsible, or passionate expansion that serves or protects the greater good of my legacy. I am a master of the universe and I am empowered with a reputation of experience, credibility and momentum and I transform through integrity." Cheers Deb

The King of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in emotional availability. I inspire, protect and nurture with reliable compassion, respect, and affection. I am a master in the art and am secure enough in my role to connect to, express and pursue my hearts desire while defending the greater good of those who rely on me. I am empowered by consistency and patience while trust is my gift or Holy Grail." Yeah I have good news but staying with me and am i getting better, more and more every day it getting easier but it might come to a bad habit and then nothing. You may feel cut off from others, both personally and professionally, but it's really all in your mind. Truth is, you can make greater strides in both departments if you're brave enough to face whomever you have issues with and find a way to deal with them. Whether they're nice about it or not won't matter. You'll know if you're being rejected, and you won't take kindly to it. Tapping, twitching and fiddling won't help. You know why you're antsy, and there's only one remedy for it. Get the deed done. You just can't seem to get ahead, and all your best-laid plans aren't working. You need an attitude adjustment. Call a friend, and download. , hmmm on these ones Cheers Deb

ADELE - Chasing Pavements live acoustic (Spinner.com)

This song makes my heart cry when I hear this one. Adele is one of my favourite singing at the moment and I have been listen this one a lot lately.

Tues

If you want some attention, now is definitely the time to go out there and get it. If you don't -- well, let's just say you should remain behind closed doors. You'll be impossible to miss, and incapable of being ignored. Keep a pen on your person -- for autographs, of course. Whether they're nice about it or not won't matter. You'll know if you're being rejected, and you won't take kindly to it. Tapping, twitching and fiddling won't help. You know why you're antsy, and there's only one remedy for it. Get the deed done. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. The Eight of Pentacles card suggests that my power today lies in reproduction. I am resigned to the inevitability of the task at hand because of its inherent value, so I am efficient, productive and leave my mark in the details. I am empowered by near success and my asset is the ability to just do it." Well I wish this angel would hurry up, maybe they can help with the other stuff to, still feeling like shit. Cheers Deb

Once again

My god Im awake at 3 again and getting tired of no sleep and it not getting any better, I dream and then I think about why. When will it stop.

Simon & Garfunkel, Bridge Over Troubled Water, Central Park

This what my dad told me in a dream, My dad always told me this growing up and now I think he know. I love dad and thankyou. When I was growing up my nickmane was Garfunkel



When you're weary, feeling small
When tears are in your eyes, I will dry them all
I'm on your side when times get rough
And friends just can't be found
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.........

Not going to happen

It not going to happen, this blog is about me and how I feel and what I'm going through, but I'm not going to write the true me because it get me into trouble all the time so, the true me will stay with me and no one well ever read how I really feel again. You get the surface of me and I won't show my true feelings again. As you have notice my stars everyday, this is what my blog going to more of, because it fun and funny reading some of them. Enjoy your life because you may never know when it will come to the end. Your in my heart mum, dad and nanna and I love to my children Jess, Lisa, Jake, Stacey, Giselle and my grandson but cant write his name yet but you will love it when he is born. I'm so proud of my children they don't judge others or ignore others, thank you for being great kids. Cheers Deb

Mon

Your words may not be magical, but their effects will be. Feel free to spread them around liberally. Make it a point to get involved in a family dispute, or help a friend work out a touchy relationship situation. Work those diplomatic skills. It's not your imagination. At this point, you have only one decision to make:forever hold your peace. Tapping, twitching and fiddling won't help. You know why you're antsy, and there's only one remedy for it. Get the deed done. Your guardian angel is waiting and ready to help you find the right life's work. Close your eyes and picture the path you need to follow to get there. Cheers Deb

Mon

"The Hermit card affirms that my alter ego today is revealed in the Doubter, whose superpower to reconsider acts as a beacon to a second chance through soul-searching. The truth is out there so leave room for uncertainty. Isolation without aim, or to avoid or linger among past emotional baggage is to navigate by a sign which obscures validation and burdens perspective. It's all catching up, but results to date are not enough. Today I make time to 'go retro' to assess matters or hedge my bet, and let conscience be my guide. It's only by illumination of my failures in this personal quest for truth that I can start to measure success or recognize an opportunity for trusting my heart and stepping back into circulation. Look to past experience for strength or enlightenment, or suffer in silence, or look for trouble, speculating or wandering in the dark until the chance is lost." Ok so this what life is like at the moment. Cheers Deb