The way we were

Yes that right one of my sister made us all dvd photos when we were young. It bought a lot of happy and bad memories back. There was a lot of sad memories of my dad and my nanna, dont get me wrong just looking at the photos made me sad because I cant share these with them. There was one of my dog she was so beautiful and she was my and when i was hurt she was always there for me, but some dickhead poison her, well she protect my sister dog from eating it, we buried her in the backyard of my old house and we even had a funeral for her. So I thought i would share some of these pic with ya..In one of the photos I was sixteen and very thin kid and the other when i was 12 and when we all had a partners and with my brothers and their partners and mum, dad, nanna, ron.

The last three photos are of me and my primary school friends at my 10th birthday party, you cant see me to well I right at the back. The boy that second in was my boyfriend at the time, he end up being being gay oh well he was cute then, my old school friend use to stir me by saying i turn him gay lol...The second photos is me and my dog kelly and I still was in primary here to. Stacey laugh at me with the hair cut in the last photos oh well that was the times, I was little older here, i think I was 13 I cant remember the day at all but I was there and this was taken at my nanna house and for someone birthday...

more photos later I wanted to try and do some photoshop on them first..

Cheers Deb

After christmas day

Well yesterday was Christmas day it started out so wonderful then end in a great tragic. lets start at the beginning, for the first time Micheal and I was the first to be up and i mean we were awake at 7.00 am. So i had to wake Jake and Stacey, lets open our Christmas present up, Stacey love her gifts and Jake couldn't wait to play his, Micheal put on his new tshirt i bought him straight away, I love the ring i pick and bought for myself from Micheal. Then at 9.15 a little fairy came into my house, yes it was my beautiful granddaughter Giselle, Jess dress her as a Christmas fairy she was very cute.

Then went off to Micheal parents for a visit we don't have Christmas there they don't have time for it anymore. Stacey and I didn't stay long which was fine by me, so of to pick the chickens up for my sister lunch, after I dropping them off and wishing my sis and brother a merry Christmas. Stacey started on our new trip, we got to the salvo to help with lunch, I really didn't know what to do and no did Stacey. They made are feel so welcome and it was great, I just jump in and started to help serve and just talk to people, Stacey really didn't like it at first because she didn't know what to do. then she meet this boy and start to have so much fun and I try to get them to help which they did for a little awhile but then they got kick out of the kitchen. I was very tired after it but I did enjoy it and gave people hard time and they gave it back, people would just come up and talk to, call you by your name like you were old friends. The women i spoke to on the phone gave me a hard time about my name, she said I know who you are, your the one I wanted to call Debra but you said straight away no its just Deb and please don't call me that. lol. It was hard but it still didnt full filled everything in me but its a start. When were leaving the leaders of the salvo gave stacey and I a present which was sweet, this what they gave I took a pic of stacey with it

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Then we went home for a nanny nap well i did i was stuff, Then we went to my sister house for to tea to spend some time with my family and my kids well ex jake, which my sister said it ok if you dont want to come back and i didnt make him either. I saw my nephew which i wont see for ever he has join a ballet company in Amsterdam and he the main dancer as well as a teacher this is the best opportunity for him and we are so proud of him and I will miss him, so here is the last christmas photo of him with us.

Well thats it i really dont want to talk about the rest because its way to personal and to close to my heart.

I hope everyone had a great day and did end up better than mine........

Cheers Deb

Christmas day

I have decide to spend Christmas lunch working at the salvo, giving back to people that that are less fortune than me. Stacey is coming to we are both going and I'm going to miss lunch with some of my family but at the moment i don't really care I'm looking forward to this. So we will be there by 1130 until at least 3.30. Then i will go and have Christmas tea with the rest of my family and all my children will be there. I really need this to put some caring back to my life. For a long time I wanted to do something like this and now I just going to do it. we all need to do this, to help someone else and I hoping this will show my daughter that she is very lucky and it doesn't matter if you don't have the finest things in life... As long as you are happy, it makes her realise that she doesn't need every thing and I know it all right to have those things and enjoy your life, if you have the money to do it but this might teach her to appreciate more... Well that's it for now I hope everyone will enjoy your Christmas and I know I will now knowing that I'm will be giving back for a change....

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Cheers Deb

yay me

I have finally enrolled in my uni course and I was just looking around. The Internet finally stay on so I could do it but its done and now I'm a little happy about it.
Well that's it for me I have a daughter with very sore hands to give some of my love to.....
Cheers Deb

Children and doctors

Early today i took both my girls to the doctor. Stacey has for months asked if I would get something done about her warts on her hands, so i finally took her this morning to get them freezes off. Shit it bloody hurt her, you could see the tears in her eyes and I couldn't even hold her hands because they both were getting done. She had 15 warts taken off and then in two week again she has this treatment again. Then I had to go with Lisa, as well we will back there again in the afternoon, I not saying much about her but she had a lot of blood taken and we off for more test. Sometimes i wish I could take all this away from children and protect them from anything but that never going to happen. I just think it not fair for my girls have to go through needle and having warts remove........ But that life, well that enough I want to say on this subject.

Cheers Deb

Christmas and friendships

I have been sitting here wrapping Christmas presents finally, Stacey has gone out and Jake is still asleep so i can finally do it. While i was wrapping my best friend present it may me think about every thing. On how we became friends and how a old friend made sure we became friends. I don't think my life would be complete with out this friendship and sometimes I might take it for granted and push some boundaries with it and she still calls me her friend. Just wrapping her gift has reminder me something she have said to me more than once ( I wont repeat). All I know how lucky i am to have a wonderful friend in my life and with all the stuff I am going through, she is still there. Thank-you for that , maybe the Christmas feeling is finally coming in. Just sitting here wrapping all my children and my granddaughter present has made me see some light at the end of a dark tunnel. Update on the uni stuff, I have try to go my uni site but I having so much trouble with my Internet, it takes so long to load when it has it goes off. I will keep trying because I have finally said uni is still there for me and I need something in my life for me......

This is for my friend, I have try to write this, I'm not that good with words but here goes... When you came into my life I didn't know how to be a friend or have a friend but over the last three years you have taught me a very value lesson. In what friendship is all about, you have showed me, its not that hard to let someone in your life. Sometimes I don't want to talk but you are always there when I do and you don't judge me. You make me laugh with somethings you do and i know I drive you crazy with my strange moods. Sometimes I wonder why are you still here when it would have been much more easy just to say no more... You are not only my best friend, I have always thought of you as my sister. So when things get hard and I frustrate you more than i do now just remember how much we would miss each other if we were not friends/sisters...... By the way when you unwrap my present have a sense of humour


Well that's it for now and remember, don't take friendship for granted because one day it might not be there and then where will you be, alone again.

Cheers Deb

what i want for christmas

I trying to decide what to do, i know I should get my butt into gear and pick my uni subjects. I really don't know what I want. I keep trying to go the uni site to do it and then i just give and leave it again. I think I need a kick up the bum to get on with it and just do it. Christmas is coming and it coming way to fast for me. Cant wait to see Giselle first christmas and just watch her and it will bring back memories form my own children first christmas. Off to the magic cave to see santa going with my friend sharon and her family and then later in the week I'm taking Giselle to see all the magic of christmas, this will help with my christmas blues. Well thats it for now maybe in the next couple of days I will have some news of finally going and setting my subjects up for next year..

Cheers Deb

what i want for christmas

one more week of school, it been a very hard week, watching someone I care about getting shit throw at them and not being able to do anything is one of the hardest thing to do. So I really glad this is the last week and we are on holidays, well i still don't know if I have a job next year either. I work my butt off here and I cant get permanency or even told yes you have hours. I should listen to someone who has said don't be loyal to anyone but yourself and go someone else that really wants you and they maybe right, because I really finding out you cant count on anyone but yourself. Its a hard lesson to learn but I am.. Well the other day my friend sharon and her daughter sarah and I had a pic with good o santa himself whooo so heres some pic of the day.

Today i went Christmas shopping with my sisters, boy that was fun. I thought it would be a hour shopping no it end up being 3 hours and but it was alright, just hanging and talking to my sisters wasn't to bad and it was good to catch up on gros. Then we discuss Christmas day and what to expect from the day and yeah we were talking about all my family and who will come and who will not. About what happening in life and hows my going and hows my sisters are.

Well that's it for now

Cheers Deb