get home

I get home to not some good news and then I found out it not going get any better. Today I get home and I cook tea then I bloody burnt my hand, shit I drop fat all over my hand and it bloody hurt and Stacey had to help me finished tea. My sister-in-law is still on the waiting list and my brother said she in just stays in bed and it hard to get out and sleep. God I hope it hurry up and she can have her transplant. Poor Stacey has to put up with a grumpy mother and father, and of course brother. Yeah I did again put my foot in my mouth and now they both are not talking to me. Like Stacey said to me they need to hear the truth and maybe they need to know, I had enough and they need to change or I might break. I really don't know what's going on but I really worry it coming to a end because we don't talk and it seems a lot of distance between us and I don't know why and what I have done this time.

Cheers Deb

get out

I wish the thoughts in my head would just leave, it not healthy for me and it will destroyed to many things and it making me move away because of it.

Happy Birthday

My closest friend birthday today, so I like to Sharon a big happy birthday and enjoy your day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHARON.


Cheers Deb

Sharon and I

This a picture of Sharon and I at the Egypt exhibitionist this was great to see and it was very interesting and lots I didn't even know but do now. I really had a good time lots of shopping the only thing was I didn't buy anything for me, which is nothing usual. One day I looking at going to Sydney next time I don't know. Went to footy today and watch my team finally win footy, it was a great game.


Cheers Deb.

well I'm back

Home from holiday and it was all right but bloody so tired from it. The only thing was I didn't get to celebrate my friends birthday which is this weekend. I couldn't go out with them tonight because of my family, so I didn't get to have a drink with her. Well my sister-in-law is on the waiting list for her lungs transplant and now it wait and wait until a donor comes up,It not very nice to wait until some else dies but it the way it goes and we hope soon because she cant hang on much longer. It funny how people treat other people, you know I have been on some of that lately and I really getting pretty sick of it and one day I just might say something but it not going end well if I did, well more for me and I would loose so much. My daughter must be like me, she would give up things just to be there for her friends and I'm glad I have bought her up that way, then I know she will never be selves in her life and show what's important to her, I was so proud of her when she said she would give up anything for her friend.

Cheers Deb

Melbourne

Off to Melbourne tomorrow with my best friend Sharon, this is her birthday present from me, she will turn 40 on Sunday this week. Really looking forward to it but a bit scared to and wondering what would happen. Stacey has been dreaming that I have plane crash, it was nice to know before I get on one. Bring on Melbourne and watch out you have two women on the loose. On some sad news it really nice to know to get the cold shoulder and how rude you can be by pushing me aside and not even saying excuse me. I'm standing there and you couldn't even say excuse, so I could move instead you pushed your way through, gee we teach our children not to act like and you just do. Hmm is all I can say and next time I wont move and see how you feel when you push me over. Or how your kids feel when they see this happen.

I just don't know

I really don't know what going on, I get up then I get knock down again. I feel so disconnect and I really don't know why. Just wish things were different but they not. Tonight I saw my life flash in front of me. Stacey and I were nearly hit by another car, which was very scary. We were just sitting waiting for the cars to go, next thing we saw was a car coming out of the petrol station and spin out of control and coming at us, just miss my car. All I could think of is how can I protect Stacey from getting hurt. MY life didn't matter but hers did. Well off to Melbourne soon for a couple of days, maybe this what I need, I really don't know at the moment.

Cheers Deb

Over

I try and try but its never good enough for you. I had enough of trying, your important to me but I wonder how important I am to you. So I going to what I want and when I want and when I feel like doing stuff. So get use to it, it the new me.