all about me

The last two day haven't been easy for me. Yesterday I didn't want to get up at all. Depression is a illness and can be very disconnected from the world and everyone in it. No one would understand what you go through because it to hard to explain. This is me at the moment don't want anyone in my life again and it very hard but Im trying to get through the days. The tears are coming and going but its the not getting up out of bed this what depression is. write more later. It so easy just say goodbye to this life and hope my next life will be better. I have read so much on this and I just think everyone thinks take some tablet and everything be alright, well it not. I don't blame my behaviour on my depression and don't think anyone should. Yeah I have depression but who i am and I trying to get help for it. Someday I wish I could just end it and then at least it will be over for everyone and no one needs to worry about me any more. Well thats it for now I have to go and write more in my diary..