Stacey

Stacey had her exam in singing today and the power goes out when she was singing, she was a trooper and keep on going without a mic. Jake went to watch for and tape it for me and sent it so my mates at work and the kids could see it. Then they stop and stacey had to sing later when the power came back on. I was so proud of Jake he went back to support stacey for me and he made her feel I was there. I'm looking forward to her performance night my whole family is going and couple of my works mate might end up going too. The so support of her and care for her so much. Well thats it for tonight Im pretty tired and tomorrow have a flat out day.

It was a nice visit

It was so nice to be ask to do the Karrendi disco again. The welcome I got from the staff and the kids. Gee I elt short to some of the kids now, last year I was taller than them and now Im shorter than some. What a great night at karrendi catching up with some old face and meeting some new ones. Thanks to the kids and staff to make me feel home again and welcome back. Shit so bloody tired though. It was so nice dancing with all the old kids and how grow they all are and how short I felt. lol Still nice to visit but I love working at the south. I would do again in flash these kids are so wonderful and seeing the boys dancing more than the girls. Big thanks to Karrendi for making me welcome.

Life is looking up

Yeah as the title said life is looking up. Getting on so well with my work mates and the fun we have stirring each other. We all doing a jigsaw together, every lunch break we sit and do or we sit together at the table. Rachael is so helping me and we i meet up with her yesterday , she said hey Deb I thought about you on mothers day and how i would be, it so nice to have someone like that. She has giving me new out look on life and Im enjoying it. In the holidays heading back to tailem town with couple of my work mates we are going ghost hunting and then we are looking at a over night one. Yes I love my life with getting rid o all the negative out o my lie and knowing how to do it, yes I have been show but having the best support has help. I have forgiving people that were in my life and or me to move on, this one thing I have to learn and let it go. Rachael has taught me this which has been fantastic. I feel like I was 2 years ago and the person thats happy and nothing gets them down. Dont get me I still have my days but a lot less that I did. Yeah I still grieving for my mum and yes Im about to lose my brother. Yes my kids are going through there own stuff. well thats it for now. Got to get tea finished Stacey has singing lesson tonight and then netball and its nice to see a smile on her face......

New apps

My kids and I have found a new app, everyday I get to see my grandkids and if connor has doing new stuff. After another tough week, it has been a joy having this app. I have so much support and friendship and so has my kids. Stacey has found support from her friends now some know what she going through, it was a surprise but so nice to see. It takes a lot of my mind that I know she going to be all right at school. The last two weeks have been very hard for her, she nearly quit school, the break up with her boyfriend and the other stuff. This week she is singing for her exam and I know she going to be fine and she has come a long way with her singing and how proud I am. Im really am so proud of her she was thinking of someone else feeling last week and made me a bad person but I do understand why she did, when i was talking about it to my mate she said wow that hard to teach someone you are so lucky to have a daughter that thinks of other and not just herself. So we have decide its a new day and negative things are gone. I have show how to deal with the negative stuff and how to get rid of it out my mind and body................

Bullying

Wow couldn't believe what I heard and saw today the worst bullying against a teenager by a adult and yes my daughter was the teenager. So on advice we a looking into legal aid.

in the arms of an angel

I wish i knew what you were telling  me in my dreams.

My heart will go on.

Mum and Dad. My heart will go on but its hard sometimes, especially now that I'm dreaming about you. Stacey singing this all the time for music.

It been a very hard week

Just what the title says.It been a very hard week, Monday was ok that night Lisa did Stacey and my face. I have a new student and not a easy one but hey its my job. Then Stacey isn't coping very well,I wish I could take her pain away but I can't. I wish she wasn't going through any of this, I said we could stop but no she need to follow through with it. This case and school she finding really hard,but we are here for her and so is her teachers. So it been a very hard week. I keep telling her we love you and you do have others around you too.

Thankyou

Thankyou to someone that has made feel that i can and am good at my job. I have the trust of my co-workers to show how good I am with my skill. I have been comment on and how calm I am working with different people. Its nice to know that i have been asked to work with these. Last week I went to see Stacey sing at school, it was amazing even Lisa said how good she was. Connor loved it he was singing and dancing with her. When she sing next we are all going to support her. It going to be a surprised for her to see, she and Jess need this and even Jake had become close, we have become a very close family now, the kids and I.

For the love of a daughter - Demi Lovato Lyrics

Stacey is feeling this song and it so sad to hear, this how she feels.

Paramore: Hate to see your heart break [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

My girls I do understand and it break my heart.

Paramore: last hope[OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Stacey is looking for hope in her music and in her art. This her..........

Paramore: grow up [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

Stacey loves this song and she has suddenly had to grow up. She has lost so much over last few years.

For my Mum

Today we all went and planted trees in the memory of my mum. My mum is buried up the yorke and its just hard to get up there sometimes. So here is what I wrote on her tree and me planting it. Stacey,Jake,Jess and Lisa all planted a tree in honour of their Nanna This my sisters and I with the trees we planted together. Mum I love you and I miss you so much and im trying to cope with everything but sometimes I just need a hug and to hear everything will be ok. Your grand kids need to that to with what we are going through. So happy mothers day mum. Your always in my heart and i know your watching us up there......... So here is a picture of the person I love with all my heart....

Wedding

Last night I went to a friends wedding from work. Wow it was beautiful and she was beautiful. I felt very lucky to be invite and I took stacey as my partner. I had so much fun dancing all night to the music of the 70s and 90s. Her mum and dad are lovely people. Well better get moving today my sisters and I are going to plant a tree in memory of our mum. This is the first mums day with out her and its not it easy either but I get through like I always do.

Me

Just wish people would get over it. I have and I just don't care anymore, I'm not the bad person here. I'm thinking looking into a lawyer. Stacey has to put up with the bullshit and her friends are hearing it all wrong. Stacey gave another statement tonight and while i waited I bought some boots for the wedding I'm going to at the weekend. My hours are going up and loving it.