Tired

I'm so tired and I really don't know what going on in my head and heart. My head is telling me go on do it but my heart said don't you are hurting the wrong people. What about me hurting and does really anyone understand or care. I wonder sometime. Why don't they ring and ask me are you ok. Burnish I'm getting used to it and I'm lucky with two of my children. They both hurting in there own ways, jake he not coping and Stacey really wonder what she had done wrong. All the time I hear what have done wrong now, when she doesn't know who self.