Positive quotes

Don't follow any advice, no matter how good, until you feel as deeply in your spirit as you think in your mind that the counsel is wise. The face is the mirror of the mind, and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart. Saint Jerome Cheers Deb

Wow

This was the first time, I didn't open my eyes all night. I was awake but I wasn't. Yeah I know it doesn't make sense but it does to me. Stacey went through a pretty rough time last night. Like no one wants her, I do know how that feels but hey her big brother is going tonight to give her support because I can't. It's so nice not having Lisa at me anymore because I don't need that, telling all that stuff. I need to work through this a my time and one day at a time. Is the motto. Cheers Deb.

On a good note

Jess My daughter who is getting married in Nov has made some her flowers I would like to share.

Stacey

I feel very sorry for Stacey, because of my mistake she cant even talk to her friend. Stacey keeps saying its ok but it not ok. I was a idiot for what I did at the weekend, there was no excuse for my action. When I was talking about to my councillor and what lead to it, if only they didn't stop and just walk past I said I wouldn't have did what I did. They just said hey Deb I think it was meant to happen, oh great, until then Stacey could ring her friend now she cant. So now we are talking through all this but all this wasn't my fault, it was both of us, I just finished it badly. It just feels like they blame me for all of it but my councillor said it wasn't and I shouldn't take all the blame, so this what I need to do. Forgive myself, when we were talking all the stuff from when I was a kid to now. I told them I wasn't like this 2 years ago, so now we are looking at what started this and I have a feeling. So that's the next session. Cheers Deb

Yes today

Lisa has meet a girl at her tafe course she went over to her place. This girl mother came up to her. Your mum has trust issue and something horrible in her pass, she hadn't got over it. I can help her if she ready. So I went over there and just see what's this about. She knows I'm not a real believer anymore because of pass experience. So she start off with a young girl around you. I don't know anyone, then she said they die in a Horrible car crash, shot I was amazed. Then she keep going on about things, wow she was spot on. Then she said their a woman here and she going between two of you, huh she was someone you know but a special person to someone else. I'm ok. Then she explain her to me talk yeah was to me, love everyone and alway have a good joke with. She told leaves things now and things will work out. Give time but could be awhile but will work out one day. So I'm leaving it and trying toget help and heal myself. So I'm sorry to her and it's going heal me and if it happens it does, if it doesn't it doesn't. Today I woke up better with having a bath with all the stuff I had in. I am hanging with my old friends Friday nite and the week after I will go to one of the teachers 40 birthday party. Until I am heal I'm not good for anyone. Cheers Deb