Saturday night

It Saturday night and no where to go . I wanted to go to movies and see the unborn, but no one to go with. Lisa wouldn't it is to scary for her and Stacey to young, so I'm home doing school work. Having a couple of drinks. Well at the moment I was watching Lisa Williams, I like this show. Today I went and did the best and fairest awards , well we did the count, in a couple of weeks the pres will be on. On Wednesday night I'm taking out water balloons for my un 9 netball team to have some fun since this the last training for this season. I have really enjoy coaching the 9 but this the last time for me. They are a great team and the girls keep me on my toes. I told the head of our club I'm not coaching next season because of my uni but because of Sarah not playing anymore and then I only have to go out and watch Stacey only. Which will be nice. I missed my nephew dancing this week, he a ballet dancer and he very good. I really didn't have anyone to go with and i couldn't afford two ticket to take one of my girls with me, but hey next time. I have been trying really hard to study this time around and have little more reading tomorrow but I need some time away from this as well. So i might try and go to the shop tomorrow just to get out. Well that enough from me.

Cheers Deb

one year today

My heart is breaking for my daughter jess today. She lost her baby this time last year, when she rang me today at work i was really trying not to bring it up. I know she was thinking about it, she had more test done today, she has diabetes. So when we were talking she was saying she has to test her blood four times a day for now and then see if she needs has to having insulin. Well at least they can protect her and the baby and that a good thing. So i told her keep her chin up and think every fine and the baby healthy, but what was really saying yes I know what today is and I'm thinking of you. I try to work so hard and not think about it to much and I know when she rang me all she want was me to talk but it really hard when I'm at work. Then I wish I didn't come home Hell broke loose. My son has decide he doesn't want to go school, my son is a different program than normal school. he only has to go school 3 days a week for 45 min. Today was the first day back but he go no, I was still asleep. He had to go to school at 1:25, I was not happy with that so i let loose and said you have to for one lesson. So he not talking and it my fault and telling me to leave and not come back. The swearing gee I really get enough of that my school where I work at. So that one child two go, yep lisa just not really happy with me, she has spinal bifida i said I need make appointment for her to your doc, no was the answer i don't want injection. Lisa every 6 months has to have blood test to see how her kidneys are. I told her, she has to get over the fact she has spinal bifida, well that was the wrong thing but the truth. With all this going on stacey has hid in herself bedroom, i should have hid with her.Well that enough of crap I better get on with my school work now.

Cheers Deb

Sister

My sister told me tonight she will not play netball next season. As well I'm not going to be out any more, she giving up everything. Which is sad but then she told she hasn't been feeling well and is going to the doc to have test done. She has been trying to tell me for weeks but because we haven't play netball or train i haven't seen her. So before anyone turn up tonight at our netball meeting she told me. She has this lump on her head which has grown and I had a look at it, it not just a little lump, but very big lump. I'm really scare for my sister, she means a lot to me, she was a mum to me when I was growing up. I have always been close to her more than the other two. Having my dad die from cancer and my mum with leukemia and one of my sister had cerv cancer a few years ago. That was a hard time for our family, she was lucky they found it early. My sister is a fighter so if they find something she fight hard so would us all. When these things happen in our family we all come together and fight together. She was the one that got Stacey in to playing netball, that was six years ago. Stacey was talking about netball on the way home and if she still wants to play, what I mean is it getting harder for her, as she has to play in the un 15 next season. she will still play for now but i have a feeling it be long before she won't play anymore.

Cheers Deb

Its life

Monday it start my uni stuff, i ready for it this time. I going to be better this time with my studying and reading. Well I'm going to try. My darling hubby has been invited to a party tonight but I haven't, in some way i don't really care but these two people are trying to put more of a wedge in our marriage more, than what is all ready there. When i start my uni stuff he get a bit peed because I'm not giving him the time of day all the time that he wants. Work going really well, Jake getting better and letting reporting it to the police. Today i was chatting with Jake and Lisa, we were talking about life and sex. i was asking Jake and he keep on saying can we talk about something else. I like how I can have open relationship with my kids and they tell me anything. It doesn't mean I love everything they tell me but I don't judge then and that why they can talk about anything with me.

Cheers Deb

Got the wrong person

My hubby and I went through abit of state over last few days. The police rang him on sun, about his truck runs in the country. They said someone rang crime stoppers and said he was the bike bandit. What a laugh he wouldn't know how to rob anything. So the police came over and we had to prove it wasn't him. So work got all his for the last 5 years. When he came over he took one look at my hubby and no your not him you are to short and way to thin. So we are breathing easy now, we knew he was not guilty, but it was a difficult time anyway. So watch out anyone can ring this hotline and say anything, but lucky the police knew straight way they had the wrong person.

Cheers Deb